Finally, I see the light at the end of the tunnel. This will be the end.
Sunday, January 29, 2012 - 12:44 PM
I never never put myself down so low for a person before. Never thought everything I did is just nothing to you. Never thought you could disregard me just like that. It makes me feel so dumb. It makes me feel like I'm so naïve to think that way.
How did you do it so easily? Like I wasn't there. Why did you asked me to go in the first place? Why why why.
I feel cheated, I feel like I've been slapped in the face, I feel like I'm just a person who you don't even think of as a friend anymore, I feel insignificant, I feel broken.
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Friday, January 27, 2012 - 12:10 AM
Oh you're so much more than them
They've all become just friends
They just don't understand
The way you understand
I honestly feel that I am incapable of loving again.
Monday, January 23, 2012 - 4:28 PM
Happy CNY! :>
I guess cny has lost its meaning. There's no hype no mood this year at all. The two days holiday are of no meaning to me cause there's no school on mondays and tuesdays for me in the first place. Maybe this cny came a little too early. Maybe cause my grandparents went overseas this year and we didn't go to the usual houses to bai nian. This day is just so boring.
Anyway, CNY eve was not bad :) Had steamboat at gavriel's house! And my uncle just keep forcing me to drink shot after shot, cup after cup. Was feeling so dizzy but I got to control infront of the family hahaha. Quite fun tbh, tequila pop! Hahaha.
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Saturday, January 21, 2012 - 1:16 AM
This week have been tiring.
IL is finally over :> Rocket pitch went well I guess, think we are the only group who adhered to the requirements heh. BAShine maincomm interview was hmm. Cannot get over the shock I got when that guy poured water on his head :< #weird
Watched contraband and had jap buffet. The movie sucks eeee worst movie of the year so far, so boring until we can take picture in the cinema #okcan. 2D1N the next day and it was goooood :> Had sucha good time there but I think I'm not going back there for a while.. There's this crazy indian guy who keeps shouting in the bus and we thought he was scolding us cause we were too smelly HAHAHAHA
Shuting's going msia tmr, anntan's going hongkong tmr, ojx going tw tmr. #emo No one left to entertain me you mei you. I'll miss you guys, have funnnnn!! <3
Monday, January 16, 2012 - 8:11 PM
Now and then I think of when we were togetherLike when you said you felt so happy you could dieI told myself that you were right for me,But felt so lonely in your companyBut that was love and it's an ache I still remember You can get addicted to a certain kind's sadnessLike resignation to the end, always the endSo when we found that we could not make senseWell you said that we would still be friendsBut I'll admit that I was glad it was over But you didn't have to cut me offMake out like it never happened and that we were nothingI don't even need your love, but you treat me like a strangerAnd that feels so rough No, you didn't have to stoop so lowHave your friends collect you recordsAnd then change your numberGuess that I don't need that thoughNow you're just somebody that I used to know Now you're just somebody that I used to knowNow you're just somebody that I used to know Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me overBut had me believin it was always something that I'd doneBut I don't wanna' live that way,reading into every word you sayYou said that you could let it go,and I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know-oh-oh but you didn't have cut me outMake out like it never happened and that we were nothing (oh)I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a strangerand that feels so rough (oh) No, you didn't have to stoop so lowHave your friends collect you recordsAnd then change your number (oh)Guess that I don't need that thoughNow you're just somebody that I used to know somebody that I used to knowsomebody (now your just somebody that I used to know)that I used to knowsomebody that I used to knowsomebody (somebody)that I used to know I used to knowThat I used to knowI used to knowSomebody
#storyofmylife
Friday, January 13, 2012 - 11:30 PM
This day remains close to my heart. 2 years ago, my life in NP started and well, I met many people who have made a difference in my life.
The week have been strangely tiring so far. Can't seem to get enough sleep or rest, time need to slow down for a while there. Such a fatty week, Manhatten F&C, fried oreos, fried mars bar, fried sweet potato fries, pasta and seoul garden. But they all tasted so good :> Need to cut down sooooon!
everyone's partying tonight and I'm just here in the comfort of my home. Sometimes, this is all I need :>
Wednesday, January 11, 2012 - 10:12 PM
#tumblr
Thursday, January 05, 2012 - 10:50 PM
What have I done? I wish I could
Away from this ship goin’ under
Just tryin’ to help, hurt everyone
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders
What can you do when your good isn’t good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
‘Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
Day 4 of school. School have been really draggy... my brain is still not working properly and I hate this feeling :< Hope it gets better, I can't afford to screw up this term up. CT results have been fine so far. Cost graded classwork today is bullshit, wo de tian ah. I think most of us can't do it lol #screwed
Well, got into omf. I don't know whether to be happy or sad or scared lol. Quite sad that not everyone got in and damn scared cause I don't know anyone there :< I was thinking if I can be so inferior in oip already, this would be x1000 worse. #haizblux Must step out of my comfort zone!
The feeling of not being able to console your friends when they're sad is damn sucky wo de tian ah. I just don't know how to react. Its like I want to help but I kind of feel that I would make things even worse/sad :< The feeling of being so helpless is really damn sucky and just urgh!!!! To my friends who are unhappy cause of CTs or other stuff, don't be sad cause everything will be fine in the end alright!!! :> *HUGGGGG*
Does it never end?
Will I ever win with you?
Monday, January 02, 2012 - 6:28 PM
Why do we ask if we already know the answers?
Why do we not ask when we don't know anything?
Irony
New year resolutions, I know I ALWAYS don't stick to them but at least I keep trying. Maybe this time, it will work :>
LOSE WEIGHT. MUST MUST MUST. I'm just a fat ball rolling round and round. Ew.
Work harder in studies. Please do all tutorials and listen in lectures.
No more being high and stupid. I always regret what I did in the morning..
Try harder in maintaining relationships with people I love/like
The same resolution I made last year. I'm getting there, I can do this.
