I wish you would just show up on my doorstep. Not with anything special, just you. And when I’d open the door you’d smile and while I’m trying to figure out what the hell you’re doing here you’d tell me how hard the past days/months have been, how much you’ve thought about me, how much you regretted everything. And then you’d take me into your arms and ask me to forgive you and I would without hesitation. Then you’d grab my face and kiss me the way you used to and everything would be perfect again.
Sunday, January 30, 2011 - 10:58 PM
HEYY
It has been raining for the whole day. Cool weather but not so good for me right now. Still got sore throat and now flu ._. Still, had to do stats tutorial. Survived and I headed out for reunion dinner. I waited 20mins for the bus and missed the stop ._. While walking back, I stepped into a huge puddle and my shoes were totally soaked sigh. The food was not bad but the company, hmm, could only say I'm closer to my maternal family. Sigh I needa go to ahma's house for reunion dinner again on the 2nd. I was supposed to head to xiaoiyi's house D: Seesee, my mum got big mouth!!
I was browsing through my phone this afternoon then it hits me. I pushed away a few good ones to wait for the one to come back to me. Foolish, isn't it?
Friday, January 28, 2011 - 9:55 PM
heyy
today was bad. I woke up and my throat is painful ttm. Feel like dying omg, damn painful. Keep dozing off in miec lecture. Tutorial was fine though. Date was cancelled sian. Finished up miec project and went home to rest. Now having slight fever and throat is worse. Worse still, no one's at home D: I want to die already omgggggg.
bye.
Thursday, January 27, 2011 - 11:20 PM
HEYYY
Finally done with all my interviews! Hope I can get in, pleasepleaseplease. I want this so badly ):
Wednesday, January 26, 2011 - 12:00 AM
Time: 12:00mn Which could only mean one thing! HAPPY BIRTHDAY , YIYING! ^^
Since I'm so nice and extremely lazy to do miec report, I shall dedicate a post for you! ^^
Alright! We have known each other since primary two?! Woah that's damn long, like 10YEARS! Okay, we have been in the same school for all our lives except for kindergarten. I guess its fate that we meet, and its your honour to meet me ^^
Never really been close or really talked to you until DPA application starts. We, with Amanda and Kairong, applied for totally the same stuff ^^ In the end, only you and me made it for NP DPA'10. Once again, its fate and its your honour to be same as me again ^^ HAHAHHA
I'm really glad to have you by my side ever since DPA'10 started. Without you, I would be so lost on the first day of camp and school. I will be super anti-social :/ So yeah, quite nice to have someone I know going through the same process as me ^^ We finally got into the same class again, after so many years. Totally can laugh for days and nights just looking at your epic moves and actions. HAHAHAHA sorry but really very funny ma :X
Projects with you, lunch with you and outings with you! All not bad luh, but MAEC )): Nevermind, we gonna get an A for MIEC kay! We survived our first semester of poly together yo! Yeah, hope that we will be able to survive poly.
OKAY! I hope you gonna enjoy what we have planned later kay! ENJOY YOUR 18th BDAY!
p.s Faster get your license then you can send me to school ^^
Monday, January 24, 2011 - 11:21 PM
- 8:08 PM
I'm so tired. I'm so fat.
I should just die now ): I think I need a super huge coffin ): Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld
Sunday, January 23, 2011 - 3:17 AM
It's 3:17am currently.
Gan Chu Liang Duo.
Friday, January 21, 2011 - 4:03 PM
I wonder why. Frustrated that people don't share my passion. Everyone is different, Marissa. You have to understand.
But sometimes its just so frustrating that people don't want to step out of their comfort zone and step into the learning zone. Change is the only constant in life. I hope some can realise this.
I want to learn.
Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld
Thursday, January 20, 2011 - 11:26 PM
TIRED. sometimes I just feel so disappointed. Seriously, if you don't want to go or cannot go AND you already know it, just tell me. Don't build up hopes, seriously. EVERY SINGLE TIME.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011 - 10:41 PM
Extremely tired. Knocked out for 3hours on the sofa the moment I reached home. Idk why I'm so tired also. Stats was good, but I'm afraid of the new chapter. 1 step wrong = everything wrong.
Had lunch with G6. Was kind of disappointed? Cause I waited for the BA students for close to 30mins then in the end everyone except for BA students went for the lunch. Oh well, lunch was good :) we had so much change so we went to buy extra food heh. Sent them to their blocks and I went home with yy, sh and junze!
Tomorrow is bstats test 2 and I'm afraid T.T sigh pray hard!
Might be falling for you. This is bad ): Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld
Monday, January 17, 2011 - 7:27 PM
Heyy
Feeling so tired nowadays. I can sleep everywhere and anywhere sia ._. I got a test on wed and I haven even start, gg ttm. Having post camp depression D: but there's lunch with them tomorrow! And lepak with faruiz and anthony after their mindworks hehehe. Its gonna be gooooooood!
Sigh, I think I'm on the verge of breaking down again. So sick of being sad. Want to be happy. Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld
Saturday, January 15, 2011 - 11:56 PM
It seems like I’ve lost that happy spark again. How long would I have to wait to just be happy? How long would I have to wait to find that missing piece to my heart? Sorry for the melodrama but I’m just in no mood to fake being happy today. I’m tired of faking already. I’m tired if plastering this smile on my face. Emotionally exhausted.
tumblr.
Friday, January 14, 2011 - 10:02 PM
HELLOOOOOOO!
Its been a whirlwind, this 4 days! I reallyreally love my DPA mates, no matter its DPA'09 or DPA'10 or DPA'11. To me, we are one big family. Everyone will be there for each other. Let me talk about the camp!
Tuesday 11/1/11 Had stats then we went to check into the loft! Did some admin stuff and planned some stuff. Nothing much I guess. We went to eat prata at night (Y) it was awesome i guess. Went to ntuc to get some snacks and etc. Slept around 1? EXCITED FOR THE CAMP.
Wednesday 12/1/11 FIRST DAY OF DPA'11 CAMP. Was pretty excited and woke up at 6. That was super early, assembled at attic at 7am and we headed off to ideawerkz to meet the freshies! Mingled around. They showed our DPA'10 memories :) Was pretty happy to see those photos again. Everyone went to the attic and we got to know our groups. Hmm my group was, as quoted from chace, one of the quietest groups in the camp. I was frustrated. That was not what I have expected. They struggled to come up with the name and stuff. I almost gave up. Everything ended around 9+. We had debrief, for the leaders. From there, I realised that its only the first day of camp and we should give them more time. We shouldnt force our expectations on them. I believed the second day will be better.
Thursday 13/1/11 AMAZING RACE! Was very hectic at first and I was the station master for SOE, yellow submarine. Was quite fun to see the groups trying so hard to get the stickers. Apparently my group say I didnt help them lolol, cannot be biased ma! haha. I can see them bond already, which is real good! WWW was next. Didn't really came out well at first. We went to talk to them and things improved! I WAS SUPER HAPPY YOU KNOW. Like real happy x999999999 They really bonded a lot. We had celebration which was (Y) BBQ shopping was next! It was super rushed as we had only 15mins to shop for the food items but G6 survived :) BBQ was damn awesome. Although i see someone who I didn't really want to see, its nice to see some of the seniors! Anthony was damn cute with his dramatic scenes. HAHAHA Had fun yo! Did alot of stupid things with kelly. Freshies say I'm on drugs and drunk O.O Acknowledgement was next and I'm really happy that my efforts didnt go to waste :) Really appreciate those words a lot. Long debrief, like almost 2 hours. Rushed back to room to meet my G6! Played some games and stuff and they went back to sleep. Joined Team Awesome in their games, was damn fun hehehe. Slept around 3.
Friday 14/1/11 Last day of camp ): Went for MIEC lecture and I totally did not absorb any thing. Kept dozing off. Decided to skip miec tutorial and went to find them at attic. Got notes from them ^^ Soon after, they went for their own tour and I went home to sleep~
This camp is definitely great and awesome. All the hardwork and efforts I have put in for this camp, are totally worth it.
I love DPA and G6! ^^
Monday, January 10, 2011 - 11:51 PM
HEY PEOPLE I shouldn't even be blogging now, need to settle camp stuff and pack finish my bag! Like omg, so many stuff to be done. Wednesday's the camp and we gonna stay at the loft from tomorrow onwards! It sucks to do it only by a few people. Others like don't really care but oh well, we must help each other out :) We are a family.
OKAY, I'M FEELING DAMN NERVOUS AND EXCITED IDK WHY.
Sunday, January 09, 2011 - 12:29 PM
They ask but I couldn't tell them. I couldn't tell them what happened. They ask why couldn't we go there but I cannot tell. It was something special. It holds memories. Same applies to what we did. Special.
This is the only thing that I can keep to us. Only between us. Last connection between us both.
I realised when we say something that you disapprove, you straightaway stopped replying. You have to understand that not everything have to go your way. Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld
Saturday, January 08, 2011 - 7:38 PM
Feeling nostalgia all of a sudden. How I wish I can turn back time. Preferably to 2008 or mid 2009. That was when everything was fine and happy. I was happy. Truly happy. Now? I get through some days and pray that I'll survive the rest. I could only do that. Please make 2011 an awesome one. Please do. Maybe even more awesome than 2008.
That was the happiest year ever. Although there are regrets, it was nice to have you there. I miss the old you ):
Sun rises and sets. Flowers bloom and wither. We start and we end. Painful realization.
Life goes on!
Excited for dpa camp (Y) I enjoy planning it heh :) Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld
Friday, January 07, 2011 - 10:11 PM
Once again the day has became better. We had steamboat which wasn't very nice :/ kind of waste money ha ha ha. Ohwell! After that we had desserts hohoho.
Today was quite okay I guess! My eyebags are getting from bad to worse. Need more sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
Everything will get better in the end :) I must believe that the amazing race stuff will be settled soon. Although no one except me really cares, oh well. I really want it to work. Maybe its the open house period that's why they are busy. Let's see :) Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld
- 4:36 PM
Sometimes, it frustrates me. I feel like I'm the one who is trying.
It is basic manners to reply someone when he/she asks you something. Your phone is there for a reason. You bought it for a reason. You might as well throw it away. It has always been like this for years already. Stop it already. I have been tolerating for years.
its just hard to plan outings and stuff when you're just not responsive at all. AT ALL.
Thursday, January 06, 2011 - 8:32 PM
HEYY
The day has became better. Glad to have someone to help me clear everything out :) Thanks!
VERY EXCITED FOR DPA'11 CAMP.
- 6:59 PM
Just got home from dinner with friends. Its been a long day, physically and mentally. I have been tired all day long ever since school started.
R is irritating me again. When will he stop all the texting and stuff seriously. Its been going on since forever ._.
SOLVED! ^^
Key word of the day : Respect
Till then, bye. Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld
Wednesday, January 05, 2011 - 10:17 PM
Strange enough, although I keep saying I'm saikang but I enjoy doing it. I hope this camp will be a success.
Subcomm or scos, sigh. BOTH ALSO DAMN HARD TO GET IN. Sian, wanna get in and do some stuff for the school and ba.
Time to do work.
Tuesday, January 04, 2011 - 11:02 PM
Sometimes just one sentence can make me so happy. You make me so happy. However, I'm not ready to do it again. I would rather have you as my best friend than to see you leave me again.
I'm mentally and physically tired, cause of schoooooool. What a bore. Got to keep my gpa up! Perseverance is key!
Thai food tomorrow then off for meeting! :>
Monday, January 03, 2011 - 11:59 PM
Heyy
Sooo, today was the first day of school! Restless throughout the day, bad sign. I'm still in holiday mood. But it gets better right? It better get better. Got back ffa, was quite satisfied. Theory screwed me up but oh well, last minute work (Y) TA30, we gonna work hard and achieve our As! :D
Shopping with mum after school! We had manhatten fish market~ Wanted to eat ramen but just go along with her. I had fish and chips for lunch already uh :/ Bought quite a number of stuff! Had desserts and went home! ^^
STATS TOMORROW. GOOD LUCK EVERYONE.
- 1:01 AM
mei guan xi..
Saturday, January 01, 2011 - 6:18 PM
Its already 2011. I think I'm still living in 2010 but I need to get out. I need a new life. I want to leave all unhappiness behind in 2010. No more of that nonsense. Been hurt too many times, been hurt too much. Everything gonna change in 2011, this year.
Countdown was good! I had green tea frapp~ ended up stuck in suntec, almost spent the night there! Phew. Haha reached home around 2am! Long day.
