So many words to get across too bad, this is not a good platform to say it out. Till then.
Yesterday, I went to sleep with a big big smile on my face :D However, it went off when I'm in school.
Monday, November 29, 2010 - 9:51 PM
Lying on the bed right now, too lazy to bathe. Today was quite average, just that I still miss elearning week. I'm just hoping that wednesday can come now. Ugh CTs are in 2weeks time and I have not started at all. What if this sem. I screw up? ): just gonna hope for the best and prepare for the worst.
Spare a thought for others. You're not the only person in this world. You're pissing me off.
I realised my tolerance levels have gone down. Sigh this shouldn't be the way. I have to learn to be patient and understand that not everything will go my way in life.
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- 12:52 AM
When I was watching this video on facebook, I thought of one person. Somehow, what happened in the video happened to us. &true enough, there's no turning back. What can I do? I can't turn back time anymore so I have to move on. Both of us have moved on or so I thought, but I know I'll always have something for him, no matter what happens. I could only hope that we can realise we are meant for each other since almost 4years ago. I could only hope that I'll be the one he brings to maldives in the future. I could only hope. Time waits for no one and this is only a wish. I will still pursue my happiness without him.
&I hope he is the only one. I don't think I survive another same situation.
I hope for you, too. However, looking at the odds, its probably not me.
I can't claim that I can't find love cause I know there is. But I turned my back to him. What do I do when there's no mutual feelings. Sigh.
Sunday, November 28, 2010 - 10:29 PM
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- 1:29 AM
Don't know what to do anymore I've lost the only love worth fighting for I'll drown in my tear storming sea that would show you, that would make you hurt like me
All the same, I don't want mud-slinging games it's just a shame to let you walk away is there a chance, a fragment of light at the end of the tunnel, a reason to fight is there a chance you may change your mind or are we ashes and wine?
Don't know if our fate's already sealed this day's a spinning circus on a wheel I'm ill with the thought of your kiss coffee-laced, intoxicating on her lips
Shut it out, I've got no claim on you now I'm not allowed to wear your freedom down
Saturday, November 27, 2010 - 9:23 PM
You know that feeling? When you’re just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you’re tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay. But no one’s going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won’t be. But you’re still hoping. And you’re still wishing. And you’re still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting.
1000th post.
I hope. I wish.
- 8:46 PM
There will be a smile on my smile
like you're never gone.
HEYY!
Today was the collection day of BBSG. Was in Farvin and Jason's group again, with the usuals and some other new people! Today was quite meaningful. There is this incident that happened that have made a mark on me.
I knocked on this particular door. Inside, there's this old lady on the wheelchair and she struggled to the door. I went to ask for donations from her. She then went to take some instant noodles to give it to me. While she holds out the noodle to give it to me, she told me that these items are donated to her. I quickly rejected her noodles and moved on to the next unit. I was touched by her gesture. She. who don't have the means to buy necessities, is willing to donate something that can last her for a day. This is compassion and care for others, putting others before yourself. Compassion.
We ended quite early and we headed to vivo! Supposedly to get my shoe at a discounted price but NO SIZE. walao seriously ._. Ate Carl's Junior and I'm fat, too fat D: After which I headed to plaza sing to get my shoe at original price, waaa very expensive D: Headed home~
SCHOOL STARTS IN 1 DAY D:
Friday, November 26, 2010 - 11:58 PM
They say that a guy out there was meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soul mate, the one you can tell your dreams to. He’ll brush the hair out of your eyes, and send you flowers when you least expect it. He’ll stare at you during the movies, even though he paid $8 to see it. He’ll call to say goodnight or just cause he is missing you. He’ll look in your eyes and tell you, you’re the most beautiful girl in the world, and for the first time in your life, you’ll believe it. i realise, it was only just a dream.
Calista's blog
I think uh, he's not the love of my life ~ Cause out of so many things mentioned above, he only did 1 and half! !Shall not say which though. HAHAHA okay stop.
- 11:49 PM
HEYYY!
Today was gooooood! :D Woke up early to bathe then elluminate session! I think its just like a discussion session of S'pore policies ;o Ended one hour early so I ate brunch and head out. Watched HP7! I keep staring at emma watson. She's like the prettiest girl around. Hahaha, she's very pretty luh! :D HP7 was quite nice, I didn't fall asleep at all! I did for HP6 :/
Just acia for dinner and I saw my, yz and jy! I very long never see them already D: everytime got outing then I'm busy. Sigh. Back to 313 for desserts! I told you today diet sure fail ): Walked around but all shops are like closed so we went home hiakhiak.
BBSG TMR! mac breakfast tomorrow, say whaaaaaaaaa?
I should be more lenient. Everyone is different. Me too~
hahahaha I'm quite happy today. Cause no worries and raj didn't sms me! HEHEHEHEHEHE
- 10:39 AM
LAST WEEKDAY OF ELEARNING. sigh, I hope elearning is forever then I don't need to go back to school every single day. All good things come to an end~ but I wonder if elearning is a good thing ;o anyway! its gonna be elluminate session soon and I hope it goes well. After which I'm gonna get changed and head out to watch harry potter hehehe. BUTBUT I can't seems to find any clothing I wanna wear out ._. and later, my diet sure fail again. SIGH.
I have people asking me about the previous post haha. But uhm, its not talking about any particular person, I guess. I can see people asuming already, bad move. Not talking about anyone in particular but oh well.
- 1:20 AM
Aching heart. Not me, as always. as usual.
you might be everyone's fav. you seems to have eveything you want/need. you seems to be kind and helpful. but oh, how wrong. i've seen another side of you. the side that most people don't realise. and its an ugly ugly sight. How sad, most people don't know that.
Thursday, November 25, 2010 - 2:00 AM
Only body, there's no mind involved.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010 - 11:16 PM
HELLO!
Elearning is a bitch but I'm gonna beat it. Haha almost done with all the work except for itb. Stupid stupid itb D: No wonder so many people are cursing and swearing at it last sem. Instructions are not clear and whatsoever, and they don't even update us or anything. Just modify the is plan as and when they like when we already finished it, they don't need it anymore D: Hate ITB.
XLB buffet was woah. Ate too much, as usual D: &I didn't managed to get my sanuk today as they didnt have the colour I want. Gonna get crocs instead, heh.
SCHOOL TOMORROW TO DO PROJECT. SAD LIFE. SAD LIFE.
HARRY POTTER ON FRIDAYYYY! SAY WHAAAAAA?
Tuesday, November 23, 2010 - 10:50 PM
One day, you'll see. One day, you'll find out. I'm here, all along. For you. Always.
XLB BUFFET TOMORROW, SAY WHAAAAAA?
Monday, November 22, 2010 - 4:22 PM
Cold, lonely night, tonight Nights like this, I crave for your warmth.
- 12:32 AM
I wished I could just lie in bed, looking at the ceiling and just waste the day away. Every single day.
Saturday, November 20, 2010 - 11:10 PM
我真的好想你 現在窗外面又開始下著雨
眼睛幹幹的 有想哭的心情 不知道你現在在哪裡 我真的好想你 太多的情緒 沒適當的表情
最想說的話 我該從何說起 你是否也像我一樣在想你 如果沒有你 沒有過去 我不會有傷心
但是有如果還是要愛你 如果沒有你 我在哪裡 又有什麼可惜
反正一切來不及 反正沒了自己 我真的好想你 不知道你現在到底在哪裡
Friday, November 19, 2010 - 11:34 PM
Day after day I try to reach out You went further and further Maybe its not meant to be.
Finally satisfied my craving for macspicy! :D
Peaceful life as both of them are out of my life~
Thursday, November 18, 2010 - 6:49 PM
I'm still hurting from a love I lost. Only you can make it alright.
but not you. Sorry.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010 - 10:20 PM
Staring at the waters Been pondering for so long Why don't you let me in? We would be so great, Together.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010 - 11:39 PM
'Cause I'm looking at your picture 'Cause it's all I've got
Timing lost minutes and moments And I might be lonely girl But I'm not afraid In a second It all comes right back to me Nothing's forgotten now Yeah everything's saved
Photo- Ryan Canbrera
Saturday, November 13, 2010 - 12:00 PM
Well,
I just read Sera's blog and I feel relieved that I'm not alone. I'm not the only one who feels this way. Her words, so true, touched me. It makes me think quite a bit.
So many What Ifs and no answers.
Friday, November 12, 2010 - 11:01 PM
HEYY
things change but we all have to adapt to changes. Change is the only constant in life. We have no choice but to adapt to them. Sigh, it pains me to see so many things have changed. Oh well, what to do?
Anyway, today is miec day. Not so bad though, at least I cleared some doubts. Lunch at SIM and we went to do project. Auntie and me totally rofled at the videos and we kept imitating them haha. Off to orchard and we went to play pool (Y) I'm getting better at it yay. Dinner and I went home~
it shocked me how alike he looked like you.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010 - 12:52 AM
I just want to see you back at the my front door again.
Today I went to the gym! Finally exercising after my run :o Plus I weighed myself and I really gained weight. Sighhh sighh sighhh. Time to stop eating haha, I don't think I can do it though :/ After gym, we went beauty world for thai food. So disappointing sigh, thought it would be super nice. Like blah. Bought two durian buns and we went bukit timah market to have desserts. Hiakhiak tangyuan wasn't open though but I had avocado. Went homeeeeeee.
I'm really sleepy right now. There wasn't supposed to be school tomorrow argh. Stupid makeup lesson. Luckily its in the afternoon, more sleep more sleep! School have been draining me out :< Not gooooood at all.
Monday, November 08, 2010 - 10:48 PM
Come back come back come back to me like You would you would if this was a movie Stand in the rain outside til I came out Come back come back come back to me like You could you could if you just said you're sorry I know that we can work it out somehow But if this was a movie you'd be here by now
If you're out there, if you somewhere, if you're moving on I'd be waiting for you ever since you've been gone I just want it back the way it was before And I just wanna see you back at my front door And I'd say
Today was not bad! But makan place's subway don't sell double meat subway melt ): oh well, I bought a footlong home to eat! heh. Tomorrow will be a better day! :D
Sunday, November 07, 2010 - 9:04 PM
HELLO
today, while at watsons, I suddenly have this feeling. The feeling of being so sick of being sad and emo. YES, from tomorrow onwards, I'm gonna be positive and happy. I hope you guys can be too! :D
LALALALALA wo xi huan joseph.
Saturday, November 06, 2010 - 11:37 PM
I WANT TO WATCH TVD ALL DAY LONG. I HATE TUTORIALS ): ): ): BU YAO ZUO, WO YAO QUIT SCHOOL.
- 12:53 AM
Hi.
I'm back cause there's this indescribable feeling within me. Oh the wonders tumblr can do to oneself. Yes, I'm reminiscing about the past, once again. Just when I thought I'm finally getting over you, something have to pull me back in again. Its a torture, you know? I think about the stuff we did together. Those days at the void deck, in the lift, on the bus, at the busstop and at the stairs. I didn't know I would miss them so much. To some, it might be short and I shouldn't take so long to get over it but no, to me, every person who walked into my life, I remember them.
I could be all smiles when you all see me. But inside? I'm dying. I'm dying to crawl into a hole and cry my eyes out. Every single day. Furthermore, the stuff at school are making me feel worse. Sigh. I look out for you everywhere, in school or at the busstop. Even a glimpse would be enough but no, I just don't see you at all.
and no, you guys are not totally not helping with the situation.
I just want to be happy, is it so hard to be happy? Guess it is.
Friday, November 05, 2010 - 11:54 PM
HEY
went out today! Weird encounters, definitely. Some pinoy pedophile came to *teach* us how to play pool but actually he just wants to play for free ._. we were all quite freaked out though. Until the guys from another table came to our rescue ! not bad uh, so we played together and I finally know how to play . Wa the joseph, I like siol :> but he's the only one who didnt ask for fb or number though, sigh. HAHAHA I hua chi again~ he's like super nice :> :> :>
after that, we went orchard central to eat and I saw meiee ;o starbucks next and we went home.
Some people just won't change.
today i found out from someone the reason why you're like this. Oh come on, as far as I know, I'm not. I'm actually still in love with him . After so long argh. even if i get over him, it would be my fav boy or JOSEPH (L)/ I even go stalk him on fb LOLOL hua chi ttm.
- 12:57 AM
How do I feel right now?
Honestly, i'm quite alright.
Realisation hits me when I read dexter's latest post.
Hmm. I can't deny that change is good.
Maybe that's the reason why I be so agitated or worked up about.
I didn't fulfill what I said I would do before this new semester starts.
I say I will mix around with other classmates.
Until now, I have not done so.
Seeing dexter and joel do the things I wanted to do, has caused me to go into another state.
No offence but I feel really bored in school nowadays.
Its not that I don't like/enjoy the times with you guys.
But whenever I try to make conversationS, notice the S.
its either you give me a one word reply or you just don't bother to reply.
Its already so dead and I'm trying to liven up the atmosphere. But you just don't bother.
Sometimes when we go ourspace, I looked at the other strangers who are in groups, chatting away and laughing together.
I was thinking, why can't we?
This is a question that I have pondering about the past few days.
I want us to mix with other classmates, like the new girls and guy?
like Liyana and Jingwen? jingwen seems very nice, okay she's really nice!
I really want to do so. And I hope you guys feel the same too.
No offence really, to the words I say above. but seriously, I need a change of environment. Thats why I wanted to change class this sem.
&no dexter, we are not gonna hate you ._. i still want eat thai food rawr
and now I'm talking to winnie about this, ranting rahhhhhhhh. but she gave me a good solution though. Both cliques come together as 1 clique? This might work although idk whether the others are up for it though..
Thursday, November 04, 2010 - 7:29 PM
I know I shouldn't and cannot expect. But I thought you would be better than this. Guess I'm wrong. Now I'm left with disappointment.
And as usual, you would think you are right and condemn us, condemn me.
Sigh, life suck.
Tuesday, November 02, 2010 - 11:07 PM
I'm afraid I can't keep it inside of me any longer
I need to control ):
but when all the what ifs come into my mind, I really want to try.
Nooooooooooooooooooo ):
Bu ke yi ):
someone help me ):
Monday, November 01, 2010 - 10:46 PM
It's just not the same this semester.
I noticed the changes in everyone, including myself.
Oh, what 6 weeks can do to us, really.
I shall not lie but I dislike some changes in some people
Names I shall not mention but its kind of pissing me off day after day.
I dislike your attitude and your actions.
But who am I to criticize others when I dislike the change in me too.
