Marissa Lim, 17.

Happiness

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{Amanda}
{Benda}
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{Bobby}
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{Sera}
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{Serene}
{Sock Hiang}
{Starnia}
{Stefanie}
{XueFeng}
{Yi Zhen}
{WeiYuan}
{Winnie}
{Yi Ling}


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December 31 2010
It's time for me to sum up 2010.

January
O levels results, the results caught me offguard. I reached my own personal target of 7points :) Next day was the start of DPA'10 camp. Met the most awesome people ever. Forever in my heart, DPA'10. 3 days of camp, a lifetime of friendships formed :) Start of my poly life at NP. Better than I thought !

February
Deadlines for tests and projects, I almost died. Its a whole new experience for me. I'm glad to be able to go through all of these with W01. We are the most bonded class :) Last lesson of Mindworks was really woah. We took many photos, sing songs and had a party! Finished up Bcomm1, mindworks, Cats and SnW :)

March
BINTAN TRIP! Awesome to be able to spend 4 days at bintan with my DPA'10 mates! We had an awesome time. I still remember how Brenda, Dexter and me gorged ourselves silly with all the food from the buffet. 15 pieces of cake for dinner (Y) I missed those times where the clique crashed my room, we had more than 10 people in the room, sleeping over ! The beach was good, we went to the swimming pool as well! Good times good times. We even have to take an exam there! The whole trip is included in our GPA :O
Ohyeah, I voluteered for aviva ironman with joel, junze, weichi and jason! Fun times :)

April
After getting back from bintan, it was time to prepare for BAOC. We went back many many days to learn the dances and cheers. Sad to say, we can't perform on the actual day. But it's okay cause we had lots of fun :) BAOC was alright! I like our cheers alot, WE ARE THE RED HOT SUPER CUTE MACEDONIANS! School officially started! More hectic than NPP period but I quite enjoyed it :)

May
What can I say about this month? This is the month where everything changes. I was touched when you went to find me at 1am. I had you. It was out of control. Promises to her were broken. We were so in love, nothing could stop us. This was a month of happiness. Almost every day was spent with you. First movie, first official date.
I voluteered for Adidas Rundown Marathon! It was super fun with my friends around! But was damn shagged after the whole thing ended :o Went to weichi's house to sleep HAHAHA. FOr like 1hour only ._.
Ohyeah, some dramatic stuff happened in school too. Was kind of freaked out by the reaction :O

June
Yet another happy month, isn't it? That's cause I still have you. We were having holidays. More outings and projects ._. Projects are a killjoy seriously. 24th June, a day I can still remember. I will never forget what happened that night. I still remember how much I missed you while you was gone for just 3days.
Xuefeng's class chalet! I went with serene :) HTHT was good, came clean with everything.

July
This month was a very sad one. Month of heartbreak. Things started going downhill. I was busy with projects and school. Miscommunications and lack of trust. We fell apart. I fought for you. You didn't even care. I cried in ourspace, wasn't a pretty sight. Friends were there for me and for that, I'm grateful. Nights were long, suicidal thoughts came up mutliple times. How nice right, just to end it all.

August
Presentations and tests. Stressful but we survived (Y) Yet another sad month. YOG break was a lonely one. We said to spend it together but you wasn't here. Went out almost everyday to study and out with friends. Starbucks and Coffee Beans are my best friends ^^ Fought for you again, yet again, you don't even care. Oh well.

September
Good and bad month! Bad cause its the start of exams! Even with yog break, I think I'm not prepared ): Screwed up INFA and MAEC. Costed me my 4.0 ): Stupid maec, I hate youuuuuu. Good month cause my exams ended on 8th sept, which is one day before my birthday! Hiakhiakhiak. 4 days of celebration! One for BFFS, one for clique, one for sec2 clique and one for poly mates! (Y) Had so much fun :) Thanks to everyone who wished me and celebrated for me! (Y)
Started work at BeMe too :) Nice colleagues = happy working! heh I enjoyed working there!

October
This month consists of work, outings and TCIY! TCIY was damn awesome! Ubin wasn't as bad as i thought and group mates are real nice and friendly! :D I LOVE SUISEN (Y) Work was enjoyable as usual, ate a lot sia, they keep tempting me to eat hahaha. As usual, I cannot resist temptation :/
School started again ):

November
Wasn't really a good month. Some misunderstandings but I'm glad its alright now :) School was quite hectic, even with only 4modules. I don't understand ITB and bstats is really hard ): Got to adapt and buck up! Nothing much, just that we have a lot of presentations for itb :o

December
LAST MONTH OF THE YEAR. Common tests were alright! Hope I can score well and get my As! 4.0 this sem okay! 3 camps this month, DPA'11 Training camo, BASHINE and BAMP! ALL were fun! (Y) Met two groups of awesome people! GROUP B AND SPITOPUS (Y) Love you all many many! Christmas party, christmas eve service at HOGC (invited by Geraldine :) ) and gift exchange! Awesome much.
Thought I could have you back, all was just my own wishful thinking. Really felt like an idiot. Sigh but I think I'm getting better. Thanks to copye and the others for their advices :)

This 1 year, I found love and I lost it. I found irreplaceable friendships. 12 months, countless memories, good and bad. I shouldn't let the bad ruin the good memories. I hope to leave the sadness behind and move on to a better 2011!

I'm stronger in 2011 than in 2010!





I'm thinking of you.
What can I do?

My heart is aching right now.

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Don't worry, it will never be you.

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HEYY


I have Faith in myself


HEYY


Currently on the bus to go home!

Shall talk about my day :)

Camp ended around 11plus and I went home to change. In the end, I fell asleep on the sofa until 145 when we are meeting at 2. Rushed down and managed to reach at 230. Ate astons ^^ HOGC Christmas service was next. I was amazed by it. I like singing along to the songs hehehe, so nice. I was quite impressed to see the passion they have for God. Performances are really good.

The pastor started talking about faith which I really agree. We must have faith in everything we do. Faith will leads to many other stuff that we want to achieve. Last part was really nice. The people of HOGC are supposed to pray for those who are there for the first time. Geraldine prayed for Winnie and me. I could feel tears gushing out but of course, I controlled haha. Winnie cried too, even Geraldine. It was really touching. The service is really nice, I like it. The atmosphere there is awesome :)

Town to meet Jason and friends. Went to buy christmas presents and we had dinner. They went to watch movie while I'm now on the bus home haha.

Now I'm only left with ncw's present. Gonna get it tomorrow! Most probably gonna grab some stuff for poly mates too!

I want group B outing! Really awesome people :)

Urge to listen to some christian songs right now hehehe. Its nice!
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Just ended camp! I had a great time and I hope I can play a part in next year's camp. Bamp on monday, good thing is 4 of group b is going :D but bad thing is that I'm probably too tired :/ Bamp is gonna be my 8th camp this year, a lot right?!

Gonna head home to change and head out to meet winnie and geraldine for christmas service! Hope its fun :) after which we are going out with jason and the rest. Haha time to make friends again!!

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Heyy!

Currently waiting for time to pass. Legs are like aching a lot a lot!! Like omg ): Am in BA shine camp right! My group is really nice hehe. Its really fun. Last night we ordered mac and walked to cold storage to buy food for today!

today was just mad tiring. Water games all the way, nearly died T.T dragonboat later~ hope its good!

My legs are killing meeeeeeee ):

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HEYY!


What is life?


I'm tired.


Maybe the right one has passed me by, too late perhaps. Oh well, blinded by the wrong one and missed the right one. Walao sian half.


you know what? You have never said sorry, even once, to me at all. Not even one sorry for all that you have done to me. Not even one.


Holidays are really great! I woke up at 3plus hahaha. Shiok ttm, its been ages since I woke up so late. I'm watching the bachelor on starworld right now and the guy very handsome siol. But he's like such a flirt. Love is when you only love one person right but he love all of them. Then he every day spend one night with one girl, sure have sex lo. So jian hahaha. Now's the finale!

Well well well. There's still an ache in my heart but I hope, no not hope, it will go off soon. I'm not gonna feel sad anymore for a person who can break my heart so ruthlessly.

And I bought quite a number of accessories online this morning LOL. So tempted to buy clothes also, should I?! Its so funny that a conversation about cheap lego rings can lead to like 50plus dollars worth of accessories O.O
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Ohwell, quite a fun day~! I had the worst hour of my day. Been trying to put that bloody contact into my eyeball. Wahpiang, damn hard. My eyes were painful after that, now also abit sore ah i think! Susan was super frustrated at me hehehehe. We took weird photos and videos hahaha. Ohyeah, before that we went to NEX! We had mad jack but I was too full and ate cakes only. There's many cute waiters over there, you know! I was like glancing at them once in a while :B hiakhiak, why sho cutezxzxz. Oh! We bought xmas presents also! I think I got to go out soon to hunt for more presents for wo de bffs.


Currently on the car to the daycare.

Was waiting for my grandmother to finish bathing then she called for me. Its just so saddening you know? I had to help her with her diaper and her clothing as she can't handle them herself anymore. This is a woman who helped me did all these stuff 17years years, this is a woman who like to head out to walk around every now and then. All of these changed. Its just so saddening. I feel so helpless seeing her so helpless.

Sigh, life.
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HELLO!


Heyyy

Today is the last day of CTs! MIEC quite hard uh but aiya, its over alreadyyy. I'm currently sitting here at the staircases with susan and serene waiting for xuefeng to bathe o.o Serene so lame you know, bth. Ohya, I ate botak jones just now heh.

We just watched shutter land, like spin off of inception but I totally don't understand the storyline leh and it ended so abruptly. What a sucky movie.

Sigh I feel quite abit sad. Sian, I hope and I wish.

I saw my bestfriend today :)
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Ahhh I'm still at chapter 3 ): still got like 3more chapters to go, die liao die liao. Bstats was alright, more like a joke. "Once you get your paper, you can start immediately" unfair to others, especially those who reached at 830 sharp. Oh well, its over! Thank God its open book test hehehe.

I think listening to the radio while studying is a bad idea haha. I keep singing along then go see the lyrics. Bah. Plus I woke up at 4 lol. Sleep too much, then at night cannot sleep zzz.

Tomorrow will be a good day hiakhiak.

Botak jones, say whaaaaaaaaaa? ^^

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Quite angsty today. I wonder why. ITB was manageable I guess. Today never study at all ): reached house and chiong my grey's anatomy and the thai movie which I didn't finished last night. Oh its like 12:10am now :o yeah, after which I went to sleep until 7 hahaha. HK drama until 10. Plus I downloaded a new app and its addictive T.T played for 3hours, lame.

Ahhh, I can't wait for CTs to end. Draining away all my energy. Thursday is clique gathering I think! So long never see them already, we should totally go to the steamboat place again hahaha (Y)

uhuh I want to date nate archibald~ heh.

I really want to punch your face!!
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I'M BORED. When I should be studying ITB :/ Cannot. Study. On. Laptop. Stupid ebook ._. Yesterday night wanted to study ebook on itouch. 1 sentence and I fell asleep until 4am. Fail ttm, so I went to sleep instead. Haven't eaten anything yet, don't have the appetite sigh. But I'm hoping for burger king for dinner!

Okay, since I'm in a better mood than last night, I shall talk about my day yesterday! FFA was good except for theory I guess. NEX for lunch and studying which was a failure. But I finally had my green tea frappe. Walked around and I was mad tired. Went home to put down my bags and I went to nex again to meet ncw. Boarding of train was fail max, people laughed at me ): Crazy christmas was good. Its like laughter and realisation. I really like hossan leong's performance, so gooooood. Supper at bugis! Was quite steady and just went in. Wanted to eat steamboat but oh well. &We wanted to get desserts but the scenario was super funny. Mac for icecream and went home! Reached home around 1? Long dayyyyyyyyyy.

NEED. TO. STUDY. LIKE. NOW.


I feel retarded and stupid and just a dumb fuck.


Hiakhiak I'm on my way to nex again. I went home to put down my heavy laptop. Today study session = fail. Shall study when I get home at night.

FFA CT today! It was not bad :) managed to balance but I think my theory wrong :/ oh well. Just hope for best! For the other papers too heh. ITB on monday, sian. Hope you'll be good.

Gonna watch crazy christmas later hehe.

Tonight. Final. If you see this, I just want to say, think of what we gone through. I want you know that this time, we can work it out. This time, we can last forever. Give it a try.
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Its 2.44pm right now and I'm still lying on the sofa. Sigh FFA's tomorrow and I haven start on it yet. I'm feeling sleepy, should I take a nap? I guess not, time's running out ):

I want to message/call you so badly but I shall not do that cause I know all I'll get is cold replies. I guess if you want to talk to me, you will. If you want me back, you will.

Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy, someone help me ):

I hope I can score well for FFA :)
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you don't condemn what people choose to do when you don't like what they choose.
Be more considerate when you say something.


HEYY

BAD DAY CAUSE I ONLY STUDIED HALF OF ONE MIEC CHAPTER AND HALF OF ONE ITB CHAPTER. BAD DAY BAD DAY.

THINKING ABOUT YOU = BAD DAY BAD DAY

why keep haunting me when you're not coming back?

OTHER SCHOOLS' CTS ENDED ALREADY = BAD DAY BAD DAY.


I'm dying, dying cause of itb. I don't understand most of the stuff taught. Am I gonna pass? Sigh.

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Itchy hands went to look at his blog again, only to find out he updated it. I guess he moved on to another girl already. Oh well, couldn't blame him cause I'm easily forgotten. On the other hand, I'm still carrying that one little tiny hope that he will come back. Oh well, life goes on,, isn't it? There's some parts of the posts I don't understand but I guess it have something to do with that new girl. Oh well, concentrate on studies first, Marissa.


I'm supposed to be studying right now but I keep falling asleep ): someone help me seriously. Should head out to study, maybe tomorrow. Starbucks or coffee bean? Hehe talking about starbucks, I had one just now! (Y) had toffee nut frap, was not bad but I guess I was too full.

Stats today was alright although I almost died doing the tutorial. No joke, I was totally brain dead lol. Oh well, so happy that its open book test for CTs! Or else I'll die. ITB is already killing me, no it already killed me. Gah.

Oh well, there's no school tomorrow! I should put it to good use. But I wanna watch grey's anatomy :/ I'm starting to watch it and its not baaaad! Must control must control.

I hope everything's alright for the few of you in class :) Be happy. Don't be emoboi93.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, I want see you in school lehhhh. For so many months, only seen you twice. Not enough hahaha.

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Time check: 00:04am

Well, I woke up at 11plus when I slept at 5am o.o Amazed by how satisfied I was even its just 6hours sleep. Why can't I feel like this when its a school day? ._. Tried to study hah and headed out to my grandmum's house. Apparently, her sister passed away. I was quite shocked. The last time I saw her, she's still so healthy.

Went to celebrate my grandfather's bday. The food was not bad but the service was super lousy. I think even I can do better service, putien has trained me well (Y) hahaha. Ate till 9plus and we went home :)

I'm feeling content, really. Its really wow to a person like me. Heh. I hope this happiness can last.

It puzzles me that how can two good friends turned into this? But oh well, sometimes we have to let go of people who don't appreciate us :)

Lalalalalala~ wo shi yiying de teenage dream! HAHAHAHA

I'm feeling sleepy already~
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LA LA LA LA~

I feel light headed. I feel damn high, I don't know why HAHAHAHA. omg the facebook video seriously. HAHA so funny one, that could happen to me, you know! phew lucky never happen but if it happened then, i know i would be the one he will protect. HAHAHA.

omg damn high. I feel damn happy for wifey HAHAHA. but she's still deciding! WHY OH WHY. people want also dont have hahahaha.

omg i am crazy already, i damn high! I want to fall in love ~ anyone will do? HAHAHA NO LAH SIAO. HAHAHA LOL wifey's situation damn funny.

AHHHH CRAZYYYYYYY ALREADY!! OMG I THINK RIGHT, HAHA NEVERMIND. LOLOLOL HIGHHHHH! LIKE ON DRUGS. HELPPPP HAHAHAHHA

HAPPY LEH. HAHAHAHA WHYYY UH!!

hahahah i am crazy~ i want to fall in love HAHAHA. HEHEHEHEHE woahhhhhhhh.


HEYY!

today I feel quite happy! First time in many months! heh Didn't do any studying at all ): I give up on ITB seriously, this module should be only for guys ._. Its like I read one sentence and I will sleep for many hours :X Can't believe I have to study all the computer parts when I'm in accountancy ._. Anyway! Went to buy food for grandma with my mum. Its just so saddening to see her so weak. Her legs are getting weaker day by day. Sigh, my heart aches for her. This is someone who love to go out to walk around in the past, now she can't even go out at all. Sigh.

Went to meet serene and xuefeng :D:D They are like retarded but I like! HAHAHA Laughed so much and we went to eat ahmei~ Just very enjoyable hoho.

but some people wants to snatch my wifey away D: sighhhhh.


Today was nice (: Never laughed so much in my poly life until today. Heh and I had my double mcspicy! Shiokness you know?! Heh. Stayed back till 5plus to do project D: that's damn sian, plus I'm an it noob ):

I'm a little hungry but I cannot eat anything! Temptations go away~

I haven't study yet. Sigh, CTs are coming real soon! 1 more week, I need to buck up and study!

What's with that look today seriously. Don't think so highly of yourself ._.
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That’s the problem with being strong -people think they can say or do anything to you and you’re gonna still be standing, sturdy like a rock. People think that you’re never going to be sad, people think that you’re never going need them to be there for you, people expect you to be there for them round the clock even though you have your own battles to fight. That’s the problem with being strong.


Staring at this empty space, thinking of what to write. Should I write about my day? Or should I write about school? Or should I write about my feelings? Sometimes, my thoughts are all jumbled inside.

I hope tomorrow will be good. but its ITB. GAHHHHHH!