Marissa Lim, 17.

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HEYYY!

I baked and cooked with xuefeng today! I was laughing so badly at her grandmother's comments. Watched a ghost movie too, not very scary though :o We gonna watch paranormal acitivty soon! hehehe. Went off to meet mum for dinner.

BB on sat (Y) Hope there's still stock !





but you didn’t love her. Because you don’t destroy people you love.





I'm listening to David Choi songs right now.
It triggered some thoughts.
These thoughts scare me a lot.
I don't even know if I can handle that.
I need to prepare for the impact.
It's going to happen sooner or later.
Even if I don't want it to happen.
Oh God.


Maybe in death, I'll find peace.


I baked something today!
Great acomplishment for me, I think.





Darkness
by Emily

I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness
and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under
I yell for help but no one is there to hear it
I begin to see the water at eye level
and I kick and flail
fighting to stay above the darkness
But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me
and I slowly begin to give in
to the feeling that lies below the water line
the waters starts to fill my lungs
the lungs that once held so much life
yet now they allow the murky water to replace that
I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness
But why doesn't someone grab my hand
pull me from darkness's grasp?
because no one knows I stand at the boundary
the boundary between light and dark
so I give in to the thing that holds me
All of the strength and all of the courage
that I once held in my heart
can't save me from the water
So I slowly slip below the world of conscientiousness
undetected by the occupants of that world
I don't want to fight anymore
I've given into darkness

Something Must Be
by Oblivious
Something must be wrong with me
with all this hurt inside,
always bursting with anger,
and never any pride.

Something must be wrong with me
if all I do is cry,
I can't stop this pain
all I want to do is die.

Something must be wrong with me
if my emotions run wild,
all this confusion does
is make me feel like a lost child.

Something must be wrong with me
with all these terrible things,
always there and never gone
depression is what it brings.

Something must be wrong with me
if I can't stop these thoughts,
all this pain does
is turn my stomach in knots.

Something is truly wrong with me
when I think there's only one way out,
"Let this pain end,"
is all my heart will shout.


The Joke's On Me
by Judy Burnette
I keep waiting for the phone to ring
Yet I know it won't be you;
I try to fill my life with busyness
Yet all I do is think of you.

What became of us
And all our dreams and plans;
How could you turn and walk away
As I watched our castles turn to sand?

Do you never even miss me
Don't you long to caress my face;
How could you forget so easily
And You I can't erase?

I want to be in your arms again
To see the laughter in your eyes;
But I guess the joke's on me
And Oh! Was I surprised!


Silence, Emptiness, And Confusion
by Bek
Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.



I play video games. I don’t like bugs. I like to look cute & pretty. I don’t use a high pitched voice when I talk to guys. Pink is not my favorite color. I don’t wear too much make-up. I fix my hair. I can play sports. Dirt is not an enemy. I don’t flirt with every guy out there. Sparkly stuff don’t grab my attention. I like to shop, but I don’t like spending too much. I don’t wear heels. I eat what I want, when I want. I am me.

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so true.


HEYYY!

Today I went to find my mum for lunch (Y) Bought koi before that and I got sick of it very quickly :/ Reached there around 3pm and we went to have thai food! We ordered a lot! Ate until super full and I drank avocado milkshake, one of my fav (Y) Went back to her office and we went off soon after. Got totally drenched even when we got an umbrella, no, I was the only one who is wet ._. ohya! I saw a dead rat on the ground and its so disgusting.

Met with them and we had astons. So sick of astons right now. Friends stop bringing me to astons. They all bring me to astons cause I was craving for it since long ago HAHAHA. They brought me a pair of shoes and socks hahaha, thanks alot! :D Ate desserts and we went home~

Tmr gonna work :> US in the morning and rws at night. I hope I survive.


Hey

I'm really tired today D: Injection early in the morning! Was quite okay but my wound's not a pretty sight. Tpy to take photo, so cui. Training was boring, I kept yawning. Met up with wee for dinner at muthu curry! Such a rip off you know, each person's serving of white rice is $3, means total its $9! ): So expensive, xf say one pack of rice is $11 only! Cheaterbug, although the food's not bad(veryvery spicy though!) , we are not going back there again! :@ Rushed back to tpy to play lanterns and candles! hah we walked around and saw a super cute and huge golden retriever. Had fun (Y) Second year celebrating midautumn alreadyyy heh.

Tmr's gonna be good, belated bday celebration again! hah.

I am so sleepy but I want to watch TVD. Hahhhhhhhh.


heyy

I'm back again, its now 1:34am. Body clock is officially screwed. But its all good. I realised my recent posts are quite short. Not that my day wasn't eventful, it was. I had inside of me, so many emotions I want to write out. In fact, its too much. I can't type them out. Too much emotions.

Maybe its the emptiness that lingers. I hope it would be gone soon, to be filled with work. I hope it will be good.

I had it all good. Finally.


HEYYYY!

kbox today :> steamboat buffet! We ate like a lot, srsly a lot. Xf even vomitted ._. Next time don't be so greedy hah!

Training tmr and I'm gonna get my injection. I'm a little scared though HAHAHA.

Tmr's night gonna be awesome.


HEYYY!

ikea in the morning :> clarke quay for interview after that. Dinner with my BFFs at night :> Today is a good day!

injection injection :/


"She’s just a girl. Nothing special, just your average teenager. Her hair never went the way she wanted it, her clothes never fit her right, and she never went to bed at a reasonable hour before school the next day. She didn’t have straight A’s, and she wasn’t the sports star. But she has dreams. When no one is around, she dances and she sings. She wants to fall in love. She has once before, but has gotten her heart broken. She is probably more careful than she should be. She wants a boy who sees the real her, not the one she tries to make people thinks she is. She wants to be loved for the girl who is clumsy. The girl who is super ticklish and has a crazy laugh. The one who is the band geek and who doesn’t feel beautiful. She’s crazy sometimes, and she cries too easily. And all she wants is a boy to love her for that. One who will hold her hand and kiss her forehead. One who will give her his sweatshirt when she is cold, and hold her when she cries. He won’t be afraid to let the world knows he loves her. All she wants is a happy ending."

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Just now we were talking about relationships. What if I'll never ever find a guy who love me for who I am? Will I be an old spinster? ): I really don't want that to happen. It would just be sad. I hope My One would faster come find me. Cause I'm not gonna look for him anymore. I just hope that he will come forward and tadah, the feeling's so right that I'll fall head over heels with him and he would, too!




Badminton and table tennis today was quite fine. Our skills damn cui hahaha. Had lunch at makan place and my lunch was free :> Some nice guy gave us vouchers woohoo. Games room for monopoly deal and I went to meet nad at cityhall. Heh we played again while waiting for the super late cal. After she came, we went burger king. We talked for super long I think, 3hours? Have to leave to meet parents or else can continue. Next time again, alright? ^^

Interview tmr :>

dexter, don't be angry already :<

Have you ever been angry or sad, to the point where you just break down at home, in your room? Your parents don’t know because you keep the tears to yourself, and you cry silently. Your friends don’t know because you talk as if you’re fine and dandy behind the computer screen. Well you’re not fine and dandy, and you know it. No one really knows how you feel, and they have their own lives to deal with, so you don’t bother telling them, you bottle it up, and store it with the other problems or troubles.

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I woke up at 3pm zomg. Ate cup noodles for lunch :< Parents are finally back, to annoy me! Sometimes they're really irritating. Oh well. Now junze showing me new models of BB. HAHA but i guess nobody can stop me from buying my 9700 :D but the new one's really tempting though. Gahhhh.

Tmr's badminton/table tennis and meeting up with c and n (:

Its all good.


Heyyy

today was rotting day again. What to do when all your friends are either studying or working? D: I woke up at 2 haha and i ate sinful sinful lunch :x later i'm only gonna eat yogurt. Hope I gonna work soon! Interview and maybe ikea this friday :> I love meatballs and chicken wings~ Parents gonna be back tmr. &I gonna have normal food again.

urgh watching the hk drama makes me somehow pissed off. That guy like that girl so much then he just don't have courage to admit it. Rahh like then say luh! so easy you know. Now that girl like another guy already. GG.


yay finally changed my blogskin.
The previous one was with me for so long, a lot of memories.
Good and bad. I'll miss you!


BLACKBERRY BOLD 9700 IN 2 WEEKS.
I CAN'T WAIT !
WHY TODAY GO OUT OF STOCK
^&%^%$^%$^#
2 WEEKS FASTER OVER :D:D:D:D:D

now I'm so happy cause I just talked to somone heh. YESSSSS! so happy.


Dear Amisa,

A year ago, when there was still a gaping place in my heart where you once lived, I wrote this to you:

Dear Former Best Friend (for reasons I don‘t know),

Yep, I still exist. Try as you might to forget your former life and everyone in it, I’m still here. I still think about you far more often than I’d like. For the record, I’m not crazy psycho or anything. Little things, like last night when I sang karaoke to She’s In Love With the Boy by myself instead of a part of our little duet, make you pop into my mind again. Every time you come crawling back into my thoughts, it rips open the hole in my heart I thought had healed.

It has been three years since I last heard from you. Three years ago, you were my sister-in-law, but so much more than that. You were my best friend. My confidant. Someone who cried and laughed with me and always seemed to know the perfect thing to say to make me smile. I would never in a million… no, umpteen billion years have guessed you could turn your back on me and cut me out of your life forever, without so much as a warning or explanation as to why.

I had a dream about you the other night. In my dream, you came back, and you and Derek were still divorced. At first, I was overjoyed to have my best friend back, but it didn’t take long before realization flooded my body. You had hurt me.

“I hate you!” I spat into your face.

Ever the people-pleaser, even in my dreams, I took it back immediately and simply explained the pain you had caused me. In the end, I forgave you. That forgiveness felt freeing in my dream, like a weight had been released from my heart, and it persisted even after I awoke. This feeling of reconciliation with my own pain made me want to write you, but I knew better. Many times I tried to contact you in these past years. No matter how friendly my letter was, you never responded.

When are you going to break this silence? It destroys my soul to know you’re out there and I don’t know how you are, or what’s going on in your life. What hurts me more is that I care deeply for you, and I can only assume from your actions that you feel nothing for me. It boggles my mind how you could flip the switch between, “You’re like a sister to me, Lindsay,” and, “You’re dead to me,” with seemingly no remorse.

I am mad at myself for even thinking about you anymore, wasting my precious thoughts on someone who has caused me such pain. I don’t want to think about you. I don’t want to wonder how you’re doing or if I’ll ever see you again. I hate wondering what it would be like if we did bump into one another. I wonder if you would ignore me, or run up and hug me. In case you’re wondering, I would prefer the hug. I hate this, I hate this distance. I hate thinking that you’re out there somewhere, possibly mad at me for reasons I cannot comprehend.

Please forgive me for whatever I did to cause this silence. Please know that if I said anything that made you think I was anything but supportive of you, that I didn’t mean it. And I’m not talking about you and Derek. That’s done, it’s over, you guys have moved on and I have too. Derek is my brother-in-law and I love him, but I know as well as both of you, that it takes two people to ruin a marriage. What I’m talking about here is you and me.

I accept that we’re never going to be best friends again, but can we at least be on talking terms? I am not going to disappear simply because you don’t talk to me, Amisa. I am still here, and despite my best efforts to convince myself you don’t deserve my love, I still care about you and your happiness. I know it’s painful and weird that I’m a part of your ex-family, but we’re all still here. Your name pops up in conversations, and we get sad. It’s almost like you died, Mis, only you’re still walking around, safe and sound. But to us, to me, it’s like you don’t exist. We were used to talking to you all the time, especially Mom and me. Then all of the sudden, one day, *poof* it’s all gone, you’re gone, and you left us behind without even a goodbye.

I don’t do this. I don’t think about former friends this much. Most of my former friends were idiots anyway, not worth spending the extra time thinking about. But you are not in that category. I could tell you anything, Mis. You know stuff about me that most people don’t know. I trusted you with such personal information because I trusted you, and you let me down. The last letter I have from you was mean and hurtful. I held onto it until about a year ago and then decided I had harbored that upsetting memory long enough. But deleting the email didn’t delete you out of my mind.

Though sometimes I wish it had.

I don’t hate you. I’m not even mad at you. I’m completely over all of those feelings because life is too short to live it holding resentment for people you once loved. So here I am, I’m telling you I love you and I miss you and I want to be friends, or at least friendly acquaintances with you. I hope you can somehow feel the same.

I forgive you, Amisa. I forgive you for not giving me a reason why you decided to stop talking to me all of a sudden. I forgive you because you were hurting and maybe confused, and didn’t know who to trust. I forgive you because at one time I know you loved me like a sister. I know you did. And I felt the same way.

So here’s a letter I will never send to you. I’m not certain you deserve for me to send it to you. In fact, I don’t know if you deserve my friendship after all of the hurt and pain you’ve put me through. I guess I would merely like to know why, and it kills me that I will probably never have an answer to that question.

I hope you find happiness, Amisa. I hope you have figured out what was making you so incredibly unhappy. I hope you have done some intense soul searching, that you have been brought to your knees and gradually picked yourself up. I hope you’re stronger, I hope you’re happier.

I hope you truly did consider me as close to you as a sister. I hope that wasn’t a lie, because that’s how I felt about you. I will not send this letter to you, making me vulnerable yet again, pouring my heart out to you, only for you to ignore me once more. I can’t do that to myself anymore. You need to find me when you’re ready.

I pray someday, you will.

Love,
Lindsay

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This is a letter I would write to you. You was my best friend, the one who I told stuff to. But we're not on talking terms now. Yeah you hate me.


Dear Ex Love,

Sometimes, I forget that I’m not supposed to be in love with you anymore.

I walk past your favorite food in the grocery store and think I’d like to buy it for you for dinner. Then I remember I’m not supposed to love you anymore.

I drive by the donut shop on Eight Street and remember when we used to sit there together and eat the hot donuts early in the morning. My heart flutters and I feel those butterflies inside. Then I remember I’m not supposed to love you anymore.

I drive home to the house we used to share, see your car in the drive, and I get excited to see you. Then I remember I’m not supposed to love you anymore.

The problem is, I do love you. I mean, I know we haven’t been able to work things out. I know that life has lead us in different directions and we’ve grown apart. I know that we aren’t meant to be together forever.

But I can’t help but remember the feelings, the love, the ‘real’ between us. It’s not like love can turn on a switch and turn it back off again at a whim. I’m reminded of Kenny Rogers’ song, “I can’t unthink about you. I can’t unfeel your touch…” It’s true. I can’t unlove you.

So when you’re packing up our lives and moving part of it away from me, I hope you know that somewhere in the pictures, the remnants, the memories… there, buried beneath all that past, is my love for you.

And maybe, when it comes time to divide up his and hers, yours and mine, and we walk away from the singular life we were supposed to live together, until death, and both begin living our new lives, separately, we can be kind to each other.

Maybe through the lawyers, the courts, the judges, the mediation and separation of property, we can look fondly at each other and remember the love, honor it.

Because even though I know we aren’t going to be together anymore, my heart hasn’t quite figured out yet that I’m not supposed to love you anymore. Somewhere inside of you, I know you feel the same way. Just because we can’t be together anymore doesn’t mean we have to release the love, the one good thing that was between us.

I learned a long time ago that sometimes love just isn’t enough. It wasn’t for us. Still, I need to believe that love matters, even if it’s not enough to hold together.

Someday, maybe I’ll look back and remember that I once loved you. It’s going to be awhile before that happens though, because right now, my heart just doesn’t understand yet that I’m not supposed to love you anymore.

Love,
Your soon to be ex wife

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HEYY!

Today I went out to celebrate my bday with awesome of 10! We had lunch and played games at minds cafe. Some left early. We continued playing and it was super awesome! Played till 7 and we went to have dinner at clarke quay. So many people today though ;o Today was fun!

you know what, this emoness have been in me since long ago. Maybe ever since my fav boy left me cold and stranded. It just kept on increasing with the recent event making it worse. I guess one day, it would be too much for me to handle and I will die. Cause right now, I'm just a fucking emotional wreck. I cry every single fucking day and I don't know why. Nobody can help me. I'm all ruined inside.

He broke up with you, right? After telling you he loved you and calling you pet names like baby and cutie? Yeah, I know he lavished you in compliments, only to put himself down so you would stroke his fake low ego. Did he tell you that you were beautiful? I bet he promised you a personalized song. Or maybe he’d always mention how he was lying in bed and wished you were there. He dragged “I love you” out of you, didn’t he? Yeah, don’t deny it. He would talk to you last thing at night and first thing in the morning. He constantly mentioned losing sleep over you, every night, but we both know he slept like a rock. He made you love pictures that were just sort of “bleh” before. Did you delete those pictures after he broke your heart? Yeah, me too. All of your friends hate him now, don’t they? Remember how happy they were for you? They warned you. Just remember, it’s okay to cry. And referring to him as “asshole” is perfectly expected. Because, trust me, you’ll end up talking about him just as often, if not more, than before the break up. There will be the “one time”s and the “I remember”s, and once you think you’re over him, watch out. You better keep your eyes closed in the hallways, because I promise you, the next time you see him, he’ll be all over some other girl. A little part of you will want to warn her, but nobody will blame you for hating her and for blaming her for your pain. Yeah, you’ll compare all guys to him, because aside from the man-whorish, heart-breaker thing, he was perfect. He was everything you had ever wanted. Or maybe you made that up. Maybe, the second he started to show interest, you made up this perfect guy in your head, and he just happened to be just like him. Listen, you will find the perfect guy for you just like everybody says you will, and it will be soon. Okay, so I didn’t believe it either, but I’m starting to.The most important thing though is don’t let him know he hurt you. Don’t let him know he could have you back in a heartbeat. Don’t give him that satisfaction. Make him think you’re completely happy. When he decides to wave at you like nothing ever happened, wave back, sure. But don’t smile. Make him think he meant as little to you, as you obviously meant to him.

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HEYYYY!

Today I woke up at 130 (Y) Had lunch and I went to meet my BFFs! THEY WERE AT ASTONS HAHA So I had astons again! We ordered a lot of food! They bluff me that there's not gonna be cake but the staff suddenly brought a cake over! hoho its damn good I tell you, awfully chocolate (Y) &we srsly ate alot, we 4 finished one cake by ourselves :O hoho Ohya! they got me a balloon, so cool right. I know ^^

Went to buy my present, I rejected their vouchers hehehe. Bought a top and we went to rest at mac. Ohya, we walked like almost 1 hour from suntec to cityhall mrt you know. Want to die, srsly. Heehee today's super awesome. Woohoo we meet up soon okay! Especially winnie, GET WELL SOON.

ohohoh, they made me a video (L)


argh now feeling all angsty inside

I feel so fucked up. All the emotions are crashing on me, making me unable to breathe. This world is just so fucking unfair to me. Its not as if I didn't try. I tried my fucking best to hold on to those friendships. THEY JUST DON'T GIVE A FUCKING DAMN.

You know what, it might be my fault then, but not anymore! YOU'RE JUST A FUCKED UP PERSON WHO JUST DON'T KNOW WHO IS TREATING YOU THE RIGHT WAY. ITS JUST A FUCKING QUARREL AND IT USED TO BE GOOD AFTER THAT. 1 day and 360degrees! YOU'VE CHANGED. HAH To think you wanted to be my bestfriend last time? all the memories we had. ALL GONE CAUSE OF YOU, YOU FUCKED UP CHILDISH PERSON. I cared when you were sad, I FUKING ASKED YOU WHATS WRONG AND ASKED YOU TO CHEER UP. IT IS BASIC MANNER TO REPLY. NOT EVEN ONE REPLY TSK. WHILE YOU KEEP GOING BACK TO PEOPLE THAT HURTS YOU. YEAH RIGHT, GO AND DIE SRSLY. I dont fucking know why I still care for you, WHEN I SHOULD NOT EVEN THINK OF YOU ANYMORE.

Fuck, sometimes I really wish I'm not sentimental. How I wish I could forget everything that I dislike. Cause its just ruining my life! FUCK ALL THIS SHIT.

LET ME TELL ALL OF YOU. IF YOU INTEND TO COME INTO MY LIFE AND BE MY FRIEND OR GOOD FRIEND WHATEVER, DON'T FUCKING LEAVE. IF YOU INTEND TO LEAVE, DON'T FUCKING COME INTO MY LIFE IN THE FIRST PLACE.

YOU TWO FUCKTARDS, I HOPE YOU BURN IN HELL.

fucking emotional now, i really want to die. END MY LIFE, WILL YOU?


HEY!

today's my birthday~! Went out to have lunch at heeren! Aunt's treat heh, buffet but don't really like the food there. Went off at 1plus to meet clique at marina square! We sang at kbox, awesome much. After that, we went astons! zomg first time you know, so noob T.T Food was cheap and niceee! We should make it a yearly event heh.

Thanks to everyone who wished me! I really appreciate it a lot. Thanks! :D

Today I sang a few songs and I really felt like crying. I really controlled cause I don't want them to worry too much. Gahhh.

Kind of disappointed cause you really didn't wish me. Sighhh. Why so heartless?


WOOHOO
EXAMS ARE OVERRRRR!

I thought i lost my student card but I left it at the classroom during maec. Someone nice helped to return it and they stuck it at the table lol. The teacher laughed at me ): Anyway, paper was okay, some mistakes here and there. Ah I dont care already :D

Went to orchard to hunt for my bday present ^^ Ate KFC, I was so full. Bought one from topshop, thanks people ! (: After that, I went to meet serene and xf at tpy! They studied, well I think only serene studied lol. I was playing monopoly deal with xf. Suddenly thought of watching movie then we so on one! :D Watched haunted changi, damn freaky ): After that, while walking to interchange, xf told us her own experience. Serene and me were totally freaked out, srsly, even scarier than the movie itself ):):):

Tmr's my dayyyyyy! (:


BLAW, HERE I COME!
END OF YOU TMR!
but I cannot help but know there's gonna be company law next year ):



Can tell me who is perfect?





” Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. every movie we see, every story we’re told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. but sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. and maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. maybe the happy ending is just moving on. or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment, you never gave up hope “

He’s just not that into you


"It was one thing to make a mistake; it was another thing to keep making it. I
knew what happened when you let yourself get close to someone, when you started to believe they loved you: you'd be disappointed. Depend on someone, and you might as well admit you're going to be crushed, because when you really needed them, they wouldn't be there. Either that, or you'd confide in them and you
added to their problems. All you ever really had was yourself, and that sort of
sucked if you were less than reliable"

-Jodi Picoult, Handle With Care

Heyyy

Today was play iTouch day! Haaa, didnt do much. Guess I will have to burn midnight oil tonight cause tmr is the last day of studying before the last paper, blaw! Have to admit blaw's quite interesting, but that does not apply to ethics. I remembered I fell asleep in that lecture. It was super boring, cause it wasnt gopalan? Anyway, was supposed to go out for dinner but last minute cancelled zzz. Oh well, wed is coming! I'll be going out ! woohoo

I need to find a job soon.


hello!

Today I didnt study much. I woke up at 1pm and napped till 4pm lol. Went to collect rent and watched camp rock 2. I think its quite okay, just now they trying too hard to copy hsm. Watched some singing competition, they sings so well. I jealous, my djjm will never reach their standard HAHAHA. Got one contestant sing until bra drops to the stomach and she didnt realise. zomg.

Tmr i needa really start studying for blaw. Cause i haven read the textbook and find all the relevant cases. Dieeee, no time again. This always happens to me!!!

I'm addicted to that video I posted yesterday. Why do all good things come to an end?~~

xie xie ni, dexter!!!

this guy right here is very handsome and he sings really well! the song lyrics are very meaningful too. LISTEN!!

HEYYYY!

maec paper was screwed up haha. But i don't really have any feelings about it. Guess I'm already numb to all my exam mistakes. Too many already. Have to improve!!

after that, we went jurong point! ate mac and we watched step up 3! omg why so cool one, especially the robot!! The guy also so hot inside hehehe. After that I went tpy to find xuefeng they all. Nothing much and I went home!

Today shall be relaxation day. hohoho

wo yao gen ni qu xue xiao.


HEY

bmgt was fine, I like it alot :D:D so today marks the end of bmgt. &the start of the horible vegetable maec. Stupid sg economy, i think its still not inside my head. gahhhh, hope the paper be easy tmr, please ):

i shouldnt let it affect it. even the post is for me, i should ignore it.


hello :B

today, I screwed up my infa. Even my friends say I'm not myself today. Sigh, hope the rest will be better. I'll pray hard for an A for infa. We ate lunch at makan place then we went home. Today die also must get bmgt inside my head. What a boring module, urgh. Heard next year still got fmgt or something. I'm an accountant, no need to manage :/

today, i fell back in love with my favourite boy~ yay. But must not keep my hopes up ): He makes me happy, even we seldom talk nowadays. Its enough for me.


KEKEKE

I AM STILL ON THE COMPUTER, how great! Tmr's exam, wtsssss! Been listening to ryan cabrera's true. I melt already (Y) why so nice. Yesyes, 4e3'09 might think his name quite familiar. He sang our class song~ woohoo. Great times. I miss 4e3'09 a lot, too much.

I remember. Day would start by me walking to school, sometimes with classmates if I'm lucky to meet them. Class door would not be opened yet so we would chat outside or even study for tests lol. Class door open and we went inside to sleep or talk. For me and my clique, its to laugh lol. Then bell ring, DM will chase us down to parade square. Reading period was not bad, the songs, for 4 years, are the same ._. So whenever I read sing to the dawn or dolphins of the island, I would have the music in my head too. Hahaha, the walk back to class was srsly epic. Laugh until stomach pain. Classes was full of entertainment, with the xmm beside and bobby infront of me. Tsk, they are both big jokers, srsly. Wo can forget noel's noble act LOL. Say funeral speech, scold kenny then scold vulgarities to L.Tan. HAHA. Omg so funny one. Recess time, we would chiong to canteen. Everyday got fixed stall to eat, you know! hehe. Then we would imitate some people HAHAHA. Susan will take out her comics then we laugh again. Omg why we so joke. Everyday we laugh until want die. After school, we would go eat lunch! Laugh even more lol. Then I will walk home and sleep HAHAHA. Homework is go school copy one please.

Why my sec school life so fun uh, heehee. I still remembered, charlene and me went to hunt for the ghost who sits on the cupboard in some classroom. Wa lao, later really see, I sure traumatised for life. Sec 3 camp already so freaky lol. Good times, I would trade anything to have them back.

Ohhh, how can forget the teachers. Santhi with her *I'm so innocent , I abit scared scared* and her darlings. Mr sin with his pullimg of pants and stories. Ms choong always scold us lol. Miss lim with her boring lessons, never fails to make me sleep. SS was full of copying. TANNY HO, I still remember at first, I was the only one from our class to be in her class. I will always pin up my hair before going in lol. &THE PORK INCIDENT, omg make me want to laugh, its a papaya ._. Joejoe with his shirt tskk. Chinese enrichment is eating dewberry with wifey lol. Full of jokes. ohhh I always draw on my chinese textbook, i pity those people inside lol. Ltan with her radio. Why last time so fun one uh!!!

4E3'09 FTW!

I hope that post's not talking about me. Cause I think i did not make any rude remarks and I'm moving on already (Y)

if only my favourite boy would talk to me, just like old times. but you're obsessed with her ):


hi.

Its my first poly exam tmr and I'm watching the tv right now. This is bad. I gave up studying infa. I'm just afraid of the theory part, the rest should be okay. Hope for the best. Good luck to everyone out there who have exams too. Heh.

Guys who wear polo very handsome eh. Like the guy on channel 5 now. Hehe.