Marissa Lim, 17.

Happiness

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{ChiaYu}
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{Claudia}
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{Dexter}
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{Ruzana}
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{Serene}
{Sock Hiang}
{Starnia}
{Stefanie}
{XueFeng}
{Yi Zhen}
{WeiYuan}
{Winnie}
{Yi Ling}


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hey


so many contacts on msn
but I don't feel like talking to them all.
so empty..


Time: 2.42am

Yesterday, we had MIEC lecture which was not bad. Had ramly at makan place afterwards then we went to westmall. Just cause we got nothing to do :o Dexter ate mos burger while I drank corn soup and shared a coke with sh. Back to school to meet up with the rest. Ramly for dinner again hah. Xf and carolyn came too.

We queued for like 2hours for the haunted house. But its kind of worth it! Was a little scary and the experience was like woah. I went into one room alone and I was super scared at first. Until I saw fizah HAHAHA. then I not scared already. I guess its quite fun and I did bond with the bfs people and my classmates heh. It would be better if most of my classmates were there but oh well oh well.

Supper at the market with xf before heading home. Market gonna close on sunday and we gonna have super limited variety of food. I reached home around 12mn :o

&&&I GOT MY EMAIL BACK :D that's like super awesome! I was so worried that I wouldnt get it back , you know ): &my iTouch is here :D:D:D

Yesterday was like awesome!

I wanna go for Taylor Swift concert but its during exam period . Sighhhh


right now, nearly 12mn
and I'm reading my chat logs, our conversations. Looking back, I see those hints. Ever since february I guess. But it wasn't enough for you to hold on. I read on and I smiled to myself. I miss all those conversations we had. I miss you, as a friend, as a good friend. How I wished I never ever said yes. We could really be best of friends now. Shouldn't have said yes. That is one huge mistake of my life.

At times like this, my heart aches. I'm yearning for someone to come by again and replace you. Just like how you replaced him, and he replaced him. I need this someone to come by soon. Its so lonely being alone, with no one that I can talk freely to. I want to neverending conversations with someone again. Maybe not girls but guys. I need that. To replace the emptiness in me.

I'm just hoping that that someone comes now. This is slowly killing me.


HEYYY!


HEYYYY


The truth is I still care and always will. I’m not the type of girl to let people walk out of my life and pretend that they don’t matter anymore. I may not like that person anymore or talk to him or her but, I still care. I’m always going to think back to my life and say I wondered what happened to so and so. I hope they’re all right. I will actually mean it. That is the type of person I am. Once you’re in my heart, you’re there forever.
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HEY I AM BACK!

This camp, I feel that it's quite enriching. I've learned stuff about myself, others and how we build up relationships with them. This 4 days, my mind got blown away. I believed that I have learned the most through this camp than any other camps.

Firstly, I was in Sui Sen, with 14 other people. We all have different characters and personalities but we all complement each other. I really enjoyed the times with them. People like huiming, alan and hengkiat, totally brought up the atmosphere. I never seen such jokers before. The girls were super nice. They are willing to help in any ways they can. Other guys were just as helpful. I appreciate every little action they made.

Our instructor, Pei Lee. She told us stories and quotes that I can really relate to my life. They taught me some values and brought enlightment to me.

The activities, be it trust fall, jetty jump, sharing sessions, zoom de zoom, trekking, packing and definitely kayaking, have taught me not only the 7habits but life skills. I've learned to put my trust in others, be confident, teamwork, communication and coordination. This kayaking experience will be forever etched in my mind. 3 people on a kayak, jingen hengkiat and me. We 3 braved through the tides and wind. We just kept chionging and helped one another along the way. I can never thank HK enough for his guidance along the way or else we sure capsize hahaha. These activities gave me a whole new experience.

We had some solo time today, for 1 hour. Everyone was apart from one another. In that 1hour, I thought of stuff. I reflected on my life. I think about the incidents in my life, I think about some people. I think about the regrets I have. I think about the wrong decisions that I have made in life. I got kind of emotional, I guess. I began writing down my thoughts on the journal, pouring out all my emotions at that moment on that small brochure. It was hard but I did it. I nearly cried but I did it. This 1 hour, to me, it was perhaps too short. I didn't manage to finish my words and Pei Lee came to pick me up. I treasured this 1hour a lot. In there, I hope. I hope there would be a positive change soon or in the near future.

This camp have made a positive impact on my life. I would not forget the friends that I have made or the things that I have learned forever.

I love Sui Sen and OBS.


It’s hard to look in the mirror when you see only the shell of who you once were. You remind yourself of how the beauty slowly disappeared, starting secretly on the inside. You became numb, unaware of how hurt you should feel after being used, played and damaged so many times. I know what it’s like to sit in the dark and cry your eyes out. You have thoughts about hurting yourself, hoping the monster inside could somehow make the mask you lived in for years a little easier on the eyes, a little more beautiful. But if you look in real close, your nose pressed against the glass, you’ll see you have become so fucking ugly. Inside and out, you are a mess of everything you once hated, what you still hate. The people on the outside can see the bottle of lies and scars of insecurities, and the secrets you thought would be kept forever are the things everyone knows.

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off to camp :>


hey!

I'm posting using my bb, cause mum hogging the connection. Working have been really nice although sometimes cannot stand the auntie. Today I helped her buy bubbletea then she told me she want milk one so I ordered milkshake. Then she complained a lot, like srsly a lot, then she went to change, how can like that one ._. I pity that bubbletea shop girl. She say she cannot take ice , will fall sick immediately. It will melt after sometime what zzz. Sales was not bad but got one, I didn't notice the si2 and told customer don't have already T.T luckily she's coming back next week. Have been eating a lot, sigh.

I like this lifestyle, work helps me to have something in life, as in not so empty anymore.

School starting in 2 weeks and I have camp next week. Hope I don't die there hahaha.


Forget his name, forget his face
Forget his kiss, his warm embrace
Forget the love that once came true
Remember now there’s someone new,

Forget the love that you once shared
Forget the face that had once cared
Forget the time you spent together
Remember now he’s gone forever,

Forget you cried the whole night through
Forget the way he used to talk
Forget the times when he was mad
Remember, he’s happy instead of sad,

Forget the thrill when he walked by
Forget him when he made you cry
Forget the way he spoke your name
Remember now he’s not the same,

Forget the way he kissed and hugged you
Forget those nights he held you tight
Forget those times through good and bad
Remember he said he’d never make you sad,

Forget the games he played with you
Forget the times he stayed with you
Forget those cold, cold nights
Remember now he keeps her warm tonight,

Forget the way he used to look
Forget the loving you once took
Forget the times he made you sad
Remember now she makes him glad,

Forget his laugh, forget his smile
Forget you loved him quite awhile
Forget the nights he walked you home
Remember now, you walk alone

Forget the way he looked at you
Forget you kiss the whole night through
Forget the way he loved you so
Forget him now, for he has forgotten you

claudia's blog.


Today I ate a lot !
Camp briefing was a waste of time.


heyy

I went to work today, again. I think I really like this lifestyle, work a few days, rest a few days then go out with friends a few days. Work was good today. Was talking to amirah, one sentence that she said was really right, about relationships and stuff. "Just give it a try, if really no fate, then like that lo. Can't do anything what." Something along that line. It made me understand that what's yours will be yours.

I'm just gonna give life a try.


HELLO!!

Work was fun today. Boss keep psycho me go university in the future ;o Haaa, ask me go be taitai. She's very nice hahaha. But I didn't hit the sales target today :/ Anyway! I went off at 5.30pm, they couldnt bear to see me go HAHAHA. Went to watch musical at esplanade, cooking nanta! I laughed so much, they are so funny, srsly. The female lead was pretty.

OHYEAH, I FINALLY GOT MY BLACKBERRY. THIS IS AWESOME.


She wanted a perfect score.
I never seems to satisfy her wants.
I tried, I really tried.
I was never good enough for you, for anyone.