On the bus right now, to town for steamboat buffet. Yum yum yum.
Yesterday was good! Weeyang drove us to school \m/ Pretty cool but the nice drive was ruined by a song which was played while he was parking his car. I hate that song, reasons undisclosed.
Ohwell, went for performance vetting. Dance afterwards! Went off to meet my sec2 clique hehehehe. Missed them much, didn't see them for soso long. Planning a chalet soon :) :)
For April, I hope to manage my time properly. I can't keep on missing meetings every time. I'm sorry to the others :( I will try my best to attend meetings!
Hurt. Hurting. Still hurting. Never ending cycle.
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Saturday, March 26, 2011 - 12:02 AM
Time: 11:59pm
Heyy
I just reached home from dinner/supper at Lor 5.
Today is results day! Went to sleep at 430am and I set alarm to wake up at 730am to check my phone. However, NP is too inefficient this year and I went back to sleep and woke up at 9am again to check hahaha. Results are good although I didn't hit my personal target (don't say I'm trying to be whatsoever, but I did set my own target). I should be satisfied that I finally got an A for econs. Stupid MAEC, I hate you forever. Went back to sleep until 1230 and went to meet xmystify and jianha0 for brunch at ikea ^^
Today is a good day, I guess.
Decided to skip iDare. Although I'm guilty, but I needa get my own stuff done. Can't delay the whole group just for me.
Thursday, March 24, 2011 - 12:58 AM
Time: 12:58am
After that kind of depressing post, my mood became real good during dinner ^^ Dinner with them is always so fun :D I enjoy every single time with them! heh Hope this bond goes on for a long long time~
Ohwell, time to suck it up and do real good this time!!
Wednesday, March 23, 2011 - 5:49 PM
Heyy
Feeling weird. Emptiness. I don't know why.
Left out? I'm not quite sure.
Maybe I can't fit in.
But I'm not gonna give up. I'll try my best.
Let's hope for the best.
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Tuesday, March 22, 2011 - 12:29 AM
HEYY
TODAY IS JOELTANWEIMING'S BIRTHDAY! ^^
Happy birthday to you~
It's the second year celebrating your birthday with you! Never fails to burn a big hole in my pocket. Hahahaha joking! Although you are very gossipy and irritating sometimes!!, but you're still a nice friend, you know!! Got to thank you for all the nice memories that we shared! Without you, there won't be so many funny and memorable experiences for me.
I just want to thank you, for being such a good friend, for being there whenever I needed you. No matter what happened, you are there to cheer me up! I am very grateful for that. This is gonna sound so cliche but FRIENDS FOREVER YO!
Yup, I hope you like your present! ^^ SEEYOU LATER :>
Sunday, March 20, 2011 - 2:12 AM
Get over him. He’s not even worth it. He is not worth your time or your tears. Yeah you loved him, I know that. And I know you just can’t see yourself with anyone other than him, I get that. I’ve been there. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Do you honestly think he is thinking about you? No. Sure it hurts, the fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls. Yeah you’re going to see him with one of his new girlfriends. Prepare yourself, because straight up; it’s gonna hurt. He will hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he knows you’re watching. He knows it’s killing you; and that’s why he will do it. Don’t let him get to you because that, well that’s exactly what he wants. Don’t give him what he wants. He doesn’t even deserve it. So what if he doesn’t talk to you? Do you honestly wanna be friends with an asshole like him anyway? Thing is, I know you still do. But give it time. Because all he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous, and really. Do you want to hear that? No. So screw him and his girlfriend. He will be sorry, trust me. When he finally sees you with some other guy who’s not him. With that huge grin on your face and your boyfriend holding you close, he will realize how happy you are now. And how happy your boyfriend is because he has you; the girl of his dreams. He will realize the huge mistake he made when he let you go, when he decided to choose her over you, when he decided he just did not love you the same. Trust me, he will be sorry. So don’t go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know you’ll never get. Or that IM you know he will never send you simply because he likes to ignore you. He likes to pretend he doesn’t see you online, and he does it out of spite just because he knows it’s killing you. When he walks past you in the hallways, he is gonna look past you, but you need to know he only does that because he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. I’m not gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It will hurt a lot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. It’s all going to hurt. Knowing you’re not the girl that’s making him smile. Knowing you’re not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. Knowing you’re not the face on his wallpaper. Knowing you won’t be spending every single moment possible with him. Knowing there’s not going to be anymore late night phone calls arguing about who loves who the most. And you know what? Today, tomorrow, next week, or maybe months from now; your phone will go off with a text message, you will instantly grab your phone hoping it’s him saying he wants to give your relationship another shot. But trust me; he’s got too much pride. Even if he wanted to get back together with you, he wouldn’t tell you. You’re soon going to realize he doesn’t care about you anymore and he won’t be the first person you think of calling when you’re upset. He won’t be the one to put that smile back on your face. And yeah it’s going to hurt; its going to hurt a lot. But you know what you’re going to do? You’re going to hold your head up. You’re going to show him you’re better off without him and you don’t need him in your life. You’re going to prove to him that he made the biggest mistake of his life by letting you go and that you never really needed him anyway.
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Saturday, March 19, 2011 - 11:53 PM
I hate the feeling you get after you’re finally done crying for a long time. Your eyes sting. Your breath is all shaky. You can’t stop thinking about everything, and you just feel flat out weak. Your face is all blotchy and you feel just ugly. You’re emotionally and mentally fatigued, but you just have to move on so that no one knows. And the worst part is knowing that it’ll all happen again. And again. And again.
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Friday, March 18, 2011 - 12:05 AM
Heyy
Feeling real tired everyday :( Been going to school almost everyday. &I know I'm neglecting my friends and all. I really want to go out with you all to have fun and all, but my schedule can't make it. Sigh feeling helpless. Missed one on wed and I'm gonna miss another one tmr :(
Bear with me, after all this planning and dance is over, Marissa is gonna be back!
Now whenever I type a post, I must be careful ._. Cause JOELTANWEIMING will read it out LOUD to EVERYONE ._.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011 - 2:19 AM
Time: 2:18am
Now I know, now I know. And yes, it ain't pleasant.
Note to self: Do not fall into this trap again.
Friday, March 11, 2011 - 12:42 PM
Heyy
On the bus right now! Feel like blogging so I'm here!
Yesterday was pretty good! ^^ Went out for pool and bowling with the guys! Quite fun! Hehehe I guess I'm still not bad in pool and bowling! Went for dinner at just acia. They mentioned a few embarrassing stuff of me. Eeeee why like that ):
Ohyeah! We went to the IT fair and the camera I always wanted is finally at a price which I can accept ^^ Parents agreed to buy it on sat! :) but my mum wants me to pay her a sum of money every month. Sian but its okay! Quite excited to have it hehehehe. Don't wanna get the dslr cause it would be too bulky but then it would be quite cool to bring it around everywhere right. Plus the quality is definitely better. Oh well.
Came to know of something very gross last night and it was ew max. Can't believe your standards dropped so drastically. Can't imagine it seriously. Ew max.
最爱还是你，但那已经不重要了。
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Wednesday, March 09, 2011 - 11:52 PM
Haunting. Saw someone who looked like my best friend. My new eyecandy though :>
Monday, March 07, 2011 - 2:21 AM
Time: 2:21am
Had DPA gathering just now and it was fun! We played, drank and joked around. #dpaforlife.
Going out later! In fact, I'm going out everyday this week, busy week! With a lot of stuff clashing, I hope I can survive.
Sunday, March 06, 2011 - 3:12 AM
Heyy!
Exams are finally, let me repeat, finally over! I really dislike studying for exams. Luckily its over, for now! Year1 finally ended, been a whirlwind year, I would say.
Anyway! Been busy with outings and stuff! Its fun, of course! Nothing beats spending time with friends and family, especially when you're #foreveralone. We are the FA club!
Gonna be busy this holiday. Should I juggle BAOC and work? Doubt I can though. Oh well, I believe experience > money! But I can't buy my stuff, oh well. We're talking about $1k+ loss of income. Opportunity cost at its worst D:
Guess I have really given up on love. Can't take all these disappointments. I'm out of this game.
Tuesday, March 01, 2011 - 2:51 AM
and I cry again D:
- 2:17 AM
Been really sleep deprived ever since DPA'11 bbq ):
Went to watch their jamming session today! It was so fun! ^^ Had lunch at canteen with them and went ourspace to study which is fail ._. Dexter slept on the floor while I slept while sitting down LOL. Joke, went to find them at games room and lepaked! Fun ^^ Went for appointment afterwards, now updating my bb software.
