Last night was a blur. I guess its not in my nature to do such things or say such things. I can't believe what i did too. Its like the other side of me that no one have ever see before. I do not think it is lack of self control. Maybe its an escape. Maybe its a relief for me. I don't know.
But I'm never gonna behave like this ever again. Not anymore.
Cause I can't help but to think of the impossible.
heyy
Tomorrow marks the end of my third week in Xiamen. Quite reluctant to leave this place cause I'm enjoying life here. On the other hand, I miss all the people in Singapore right now.
Anyway! Feeling a little blue this few days. I don't know how to comprehend this, it is just like last year all over again. Got to stop this.
To you, please cheer up k! You know we are always here for you. Don't keep it inside, cry if you want, rant if you want. I won't judge. I will be there for you :> Cheer up k!!
Heyy! :>
It is already the 11th day in Xiamen! Time passes so quickly now, so unlike the first week! Have been enjoying life so far, its been fun with all the people around me!
Now we got beatbox as the activity of the Xiamen OIP team hehe, so funny only. Anyway, finished up 30% of BCOMM already! Got back networking grade and going to get back business message test grade tomorrow! Ohwellz, tomorrow we gonna get back our sem 2.2 results too, nervous max. I just hope to maintain my gpa!
We are going to cocacola tomorrow whoooo, hope its good and better than today's visit.
I'm happy with my project mates, girls power whoo!
I reallyreally miss a lot of people, especially you. I miss talking to you, especially when you're there and I'm here. We are so far apart.
Ohwell, thank goodness I still can whatsapp with the team everydayyy! :> I love you two! <3
Anyway, we finally have xlb todayyyy! :> TOTALLY WORTH THE WALK AND ITS DAMN CHEAP. Its like one long is less than 2sgd and it have 8 in one long! :> Skin is super thin and super juicy omg. Thinking about it makes me miss it so much, I WANT TO EAT IT AGAIN. We finished up 10longs and it wasnt enough HAHAHA. Beer is damn cheap here toooooo! Where do you buy a big bottle of beer for RMB4?! HEHEHE AWESOME LUNCH WHOOOOOOO. LOVING IT SO MUCH, we even made a video about it. Heh
Ohyeah, should blog about my birthdayyy! :> Had an awesome one this year! Eddy came to my room to pass me my present heh. Leon's emails are supersupersuper sweet and touching <3 Mad love <3<3<3 The celebrations I had before coming to Xiamen were really :') The whole class went to celebrate for me at a steamboat restaurant and we had an awesome cheesecake birthday cake whoo! :> Was really touched :> I really appreciate everyone's wishes! <3
HEYYY!
4th day in xiamen! Quite okay I guess, just not used to the toilet and the internet! Time passes by so slowly, feels like I have been here for weeks!
Ohwell, went to H&M last night, awesome much. Followed by dinner which was damn awesome with the girls! :> Right now, we are just slacking in the room trying to do our OIE project hahaha. Procrastinate ttm, keep getting off track. But my grouping is gooooood :>
Can sleep in tomorrow whoooo FINALLY
Cultural shock.
Last night in Singapore before I leave for China for 5 weeks.
Today has been good! Woke up super early to send Eddy off then went to Shuting's house for lunch with ann! Was pretty fun I guess! Leon came and we went to shopped for our birthday presents! Bought a formal shirt, just nice for bcomm2 :> Went off to settle some stuff then met up with the rest for korean bbq buffet! Ate until we are all so smelly :<
Went to send the Shanghai people off! Quite sad to see some of my friends gone for 5 weeks. Had a sudden realisation that its gonna be my turn the next day and I feel damn sad :( I don't know how to survive this 5 weeks without my family and close friends around. I hope I can go through this 5 weeks smoothly.
Till then.
Had an almost perfect day todayy! :>
Photoshoot early in the morning! Was quite alright, just that my eyebrows really cannot :< Ohwellz, stayed at IT helpdesk for almost 2 hours to solve the vpn problem, okcan.
Anyway, went to meet BFFs at orchard! They bluff me that ncw is not coming already cause of some hdb stuff? I was quite disappointed, to be honest. Ohwell so we shopped around then went to chijmes for carnivore :> &&&&& ncw was there! Heh I knew it all along though. The staff sang me a happy birthday song in brazilian, pretty cool. Had to pull down a pinata that contains a lot of sweets and chocolate! Meat buffet was alright, love the cheese balls :>
ohohoh! ncw baked me a cake and put some photos of us around it <3 Aww like so sweet. But there's one photo that brings back some bad memories haha, ohwell.
whooooo the night was goooood :>
I love all of you <3 4 of you never fails to be there for me <3
I can't do this, I really cannot.
I KNOW I HAVE BEEN COMPLAINING DAY AND NIGHT ABOUT THIS BUT WALAO, I REALLY CANNOT.
It sucks when this happens, I can't lose this another time. Its killing me slowly, everyday. This 5 weeks will really end all of this and I am helpless. I can't do anything to change this. Ahhhhh :(
It doesn't help when the past continues to haunt me at a daily basis. Sucks when just one minor thing can trigger every little thing.
Can't believe I'm crying while typing this post. I am a loser.
No one will understand what I'm going through right now.
