when I text you, it means I miss you. If I don't text you, it just means that I'm waiting for you to miss me.
just me. I will work hard for o levels! No more thinking of unnecessary stuff. Till then.
Hope you won't lose it.
have you realised, ever since you told me that night, our feelings and moods seem to be a rollercoaster? Its either right down or right up. I could feel my heart wrenching when you are sad. It affected me somewhat. You like to keep everything inside and not telling me what's on your mind sometimes. I try to guess, but those guesses ends up back to the past.
Like today, we went out to study. I knew we will be in silence most of the time but not as much as what happened today. Its almost ridiculous. You me in my living room, we did not exchange any words, we talked using sms. Idk, it just affect me quite abit. It doesn't seems to be that case in the past for both of us, I don't know why, I feel so helpless.It is because you are too shy or what? I want to talk to you but words just can't come out. There are times today where I just wanted to go and sit beside you. Hmm, time for us to concentrate on studies first :D
GRADUATED TODAY ! Its really the end of 10years of education. After all the drama last night, I think our performace today was great ! Although like abit funny at first but we managed to sing loud and clear ! I'm so happy that we finally come together and present 4e3 to the whole school :D Went all around school and took photos. Those memories will be forever in our heart.
f those problems, let there be *us*
Day started off quite bad, feeling guilty and sad. Everything's alright now ^^
Class drama, all cause of one sms. If you dont want to perform or what, cant you just stand behind and just sway? Why must you cause so much unhappiness among the class? You are just so selfish. You made everyone so f upset. Just caused you want people to acompany you not to sing? Sorry to tell you, your plan failed. &its not even her fault, why must you say her in such a bad light? You are just an unreasonable person.
I'm so happy that everything is fine now. I hope we will voice out our opinions and not keep it inside, it will be better ^^ hee
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studied with usuals today, not productive today :X Hope to step up the speed tmr ! Routine everyday is pretty much the same. Wake up at 7/8 , meet xf at traffic light, studied and play until late late, go home bathe and use lappy until 2/3. &the routine same for everyday. I HOPE O LEVELS FASTER OVER OVER.
why does it happen again? :(
Happy, maybe?
Here to post again, waiting for my hair to dry so I can sleep ~
Study break have started and my productivity decreased by alot alot :( Now, going to school everyday heh. Hope it would turns out alright. Poa was not bad, although only finished one paper after like many hours :X Went tuition late , should have went earlier instead of slacking. 10 more days to english and just 6 more days to practical ! omgomgomg, I'm seriously freaking out.
Today I walked home from the bus stop, thought about things. Now, I realised it was all me. I was not good enough for him then and, not good enough for * now. I was never good enough. I'm really tired of trying to guess what you are thinking. Maybe its wishful thinking on my part again. I'm sorry I'm such a fcuked up person. Nevermind, its will be okay. p.s you really didnt make me upset that day !! ( you know who you are kekeke)
YO !
Graduated today, caps 4 years in Beatty. Time flies, it seems like sec 1 is only a few days back. Learnt a lot this few years. From the dramas in sec 1 , bad results for streaming for sec 2 , change of clique in sec 3 and lastly 4E3'09 in sec 4. We might not be the most united class but there are still many memories between us. I will miss some people, I hope all of us can meet up after O's sometimes ! Now, 9 more days to science practical and 13 more days to start of the english papers. ALL OF US GONNA WORK HARD !
Sad cause parents are still not satisfied with my results. Can't they see my hard work?
Drama today, luckily everything's alright now ^^ Happy that we are finally booking the tour package, gonna have a whole house to 4 of us :D YAY , one thing to do after O's. Gonna save up and enjoy enjoy :D
11476.) I want you to know that I think I'm falling in love with you. Please don't freak out.
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tired of everything thats happening. I moved on, only into a situation like this. Yet another wishful thinking on my side? Idk, seriously. I never thought it would leads to this. Yet another time. When would this kind of situation ever ends?
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Block lessons wasnt as bad as I thought. We have been doing papers and I can say that its quite productive ^^ all lessons were quiet except for poa. The other levels are having their exams and about 25 more days, we gonna have our o levels. Kinda feel that I'm not ready for it but i will try my best. Think of all the fun we gonna have. Gonna have our graduation day soon, will be doing a video and maybe performance? lets see. Drama in school today, feels that its a little unfair. Oh well, better not mention any names or else I will receive the same unfair treatment too. Most probably meeting the girls next friday to discuss hk trip, after charlotte's back. That lucky girl in japan right now while I'm suffering hahaha. Shes gonna get me something there and food for all :D
Okay, talking about somethings that I wanna vent out :X
Idk why I am feeling this way. The feeling of getting stabbed in the heart when I heard that you went out with her or sms her? Everyday, I look forward to the moment when I receive your sms. It never fails to make me happy. Every time when a sms come in, I would hope that its you. I look forward to seeing you, do you know that? I know this is not what I should feel. I should treat you like a good friend and thats all. I hate myself for doing that but you are just so... I hate this feeling and I know you like her, which makes me feel abit sad, when I should not even have any feelings ! urgh, hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it
